New York Blackbeard COVID Arc

This content will just be based on my ish instead of sharing real ish in my life like the previous New York Blackbeard entries If that makes sense lol. Plus I'm bored.

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New York Blackbeard Diary

Day 30

Before I start. I just want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my New York Blackbeard diary entries. I had no intention of expecting reaction towards this. It's definitely an honor to get a feedback and acknowledgement from friends, family, and people to read my diary entries. All love. I'll be writing til I'm finally out of the shelter. So stay tuned for more gems baby lol. On to my day........

Woke up early but that's probably because I slept early. After breakfast, I got ready and just took books instead of gym clothes. When I have mail, I skip gym. It sucks getting mail in the shelter. You get the mail but not on the day when you actually got the mail. You have to wait 4 days and there's a paper on a bulletin of a list of names and the date and number next to your name of a mail that belongs to you. Got my mail and it was 2 letters informing me that my insurance didn't fully covered the doctor's visits. In total of 3 letters which tells me that I have an issue with my insurance which sucks cause these insurance company want you to join and my only purpose of getting insurance was for my Multiple Sclerosis but it seems like anything free is not really free. So I have a chance to appeal the bullshit but I perfer to set up a in person appointment to understand why they can't fully cover the bill. It's already bad enough I have pay for this Social Security overpayment just cause and pay this one shot deal before or I have to go to court. Hell, I still haven't had a chance to even to start paying my 2017 Spring tution at City College and I have to pay for it so I can get my associate's degree that I earn from Kingsborough Community College because they won't give me my associate's degree until I pay City College. CUNY working together I see and I DON'T EVEN OWE KINGSBOROUGH COMMUNITY COLLEGE ANY MONEY. So why hold something that I earn and I actually paid at some point. Kind of makes me feel like I went to college for nothing at all. So now with the insurance doing this, my debt will be more of a problem. City College tutuion is about $1,800, One Shot Deal is about $2,000, and Social Security $40,000. With this insurance situation, it's probably gonna add up and I have no choice either cause I have Multiple Sclerosis and I need treatment. It seems like life is hitting me like crazy and I have no choice but to make an effort alone or nothing happens. At some point I feel like I'm going to die not by committing suicide cause that's wack, selfish, and I know better but actually die from karoshi (a overwork death in Japan) because I'm always on the move from morning to night everyday and I have to do things or nothing happens at all. Before I left the shelter, I got into conversations with my good people and watch the latest One Piece episode. I'm still binge watching One Piece episodes trying to catch up to the Dressrosa Arc before this year ends. I headed to Target to chill and kill time til work started. Started work which was cool and smooth and went back to the shelter, sign for my bed and ended my day by laying down in thinking mode.

Unfortunately, I can't fool anyone with my smile and positivity covering my real pain and life..........

Jikai.......A New Day To Stop Or Continue