#shawnmends

Shawn and Y/N had been secretly dating for six months. They had known each other for five years now but had stayed friends. They first met when they were both opening acts for Austin Mahone. Y/N and Shawn instantly clicked, but despite the rumors, they were nothing more than friends. 

Except for on those late nights that seemed to happen every couple of times they got together. When they both got too tired to think properly. And cuddling turned into kissing passionately on the couch while a movie played in the background. Both tooscared to admit what had happened the night before in fear of ruining something. 

It started after they were 18 and Y/N had gotten her own apartment. Before that they liked to claim they were strictly friends, but everyone could see the chemistry they had. Even James Corden who had asked about it when they were promoting their new song, I Know What You Did Last Summer.

They should’ve realized it as their bodies were pressed together on the couch. She should’ve known when he placed his arm behind her head. He should’ve known when she leaned into him, feeling a little nervous with the crowd being so big. They should’ve known it when the fans were surprised they weren’t together. But the fans knew there was something there before they did. 

“The fans want to know if you two are together. So, care to give us an answer,” James had said. 

“No, no. That would be weird, he’s like a brother to me,” Y/N had instantly denied, not noticing the hurt that flashed on Shawn’s face. Little did he know that she was only denying it so she wouldn’t have to hear him do it. 

“Really?! There is no way you two haven’t made out.”

“We haven’t actually,” Shawn said turning his body towards her now. 

“Why?!”

“Every time I go in for the move, she swerves me. And did you not just hear her say I was like her brother?” 

“Oh, so you have made a move, but she friend zones you,” James stated raising his eyebrows at them. 

“Oh yea! I’ve totally made a move, but I don’t think it’s going happen,” he tried to play it off, but the fans could tell he was hurt by it. 

“Hey! He’s the one who friend zones! He calls me kid!”

“Ok let’s get to the bottom of this.”

They both let out a groan. “No, we’re kidding James! We’re not together!” They both tried to argue. 

“You’re both being very defensive. So let me get this straight: Shawn is saying that when he leans in, you say no. But you’re saying—”

“He’s never leaned in,” she laughed. 

“Well, it sounds to me like you both are in love but are too shy to say it.”

“You also think we’ve both made out, but we haven’t.”

“There is no way you two haven’t made out!”

“James! Stop it! We haven’t!” Both of their faces were bright red now. 

“I just love watching your faces. But anyways, I don’t care what you say, you two definitely have something going on. Stay tuned for the amazing performance that will be coming up by these two.”

Y/N and Shawn stood from the couch giving James a hug and rolling their eyes at him as they both walked off the stage. 

*****

That night as they lay in Shawn’s hotel room, they could feel the tension. There was something unsaid between the two of them—an elephant in the room if you will. And as they watched the movie play out before them, they couldn’t help but look over at the other.

And then suddenly they were locking lips for the first time, and it felt like a breath of fresh air for the both of them. Maybe, just maybe they could be something more after this night. But in the morning, Y/N wasn’t in the bed and Shawn had assumed she didn’t want to talk. So, he got up and dressed himself for the day. 

And when Y/N came out of the bathroom, she was disappointed when Shawn acted like nothing had happened. 

This pattern continued for a few months until Y/N got a boyfriend. Just when Shawn had written a song to confess his love for her. He was going to fly out and sing it to her and everything. He was a very handsome and boyfriend too. Who could travel with her because of his flexible job. And unlike Shawn, she was able to see him for most days of the year. 

So, Shawn and Y/N became distant. They still talked and would wave when they saw each other, but they weren’t as close as they once had been. And Shawn never told her about the song he wrote for her. Or that most of his songs were written about her. 

Until one day when Shawn couldn’t hold it back anymore. He went to one of Y/N’s shows in Canada. Her boyfriend hadn’t been able to attend this particular one which gave Shawn the perfect opportunity to tell her. He had decided that he either was going to watch her be in love with someone else or try to win her over. 

She had run off the stage and pulled him into a hug, kissing his cheek and thanking him for being there. And when they got back to the hotel, Shawn had invited her to his room. She had to admit it felt a little wrong being alone with him after everything, but she knew that he wouldn’t try anything. He didn’t think of her as anything more than a make out buddy. 

“How are you, Shawn? It’s been a hot minute.” 

“I’m doing ok. How are you and Matthew?” The name hurt to say. 

“We’re great,” she cleared her throat. “I saw you went to the Met Gala with Hailey Baldwin. She looked gorgeous. Are you two dating?”

He swallowed his spit. “We had a fling. It didn’t work out. We both were caught up on other people.”

“Hmm. She still loves Justin huh?” 

Shawn nodded. It was now or never. “Yea. And I still love you.”

Y/N audibly gasped, her heart rapidly pounding in her chest. It was the words she had been longing to hear for as long as she knew him. But they came at the wrong time. Her and Matthew had been dating for one year now and while she did love Shawn, she wanted to see where things would go with her and Matthew. 

“I…woah. Umm, I had no idea you felt this way about me.”

Shawn closed his eyes before looking back up at her only to see her eyes filled with pity. “Remember the James Corden Show?” He chuckled a little to relieve the tension. “When he said that we were in love, I couldn’t help but believe him. Because I loved you even back then and some stupid part of me hoped you loved me.”

“Shawn…I—”

“You know every song I’ve written has been about you. And I know that some part of you must feel the same way about me. I tried to deny it all these years, but you wouldn’t have kissed me the way you did that night if you didn’t have some sort of feelings for me.”

“Please…Matthew is so perfect for me. I can’t—” 

“Do you love him?! Did you ever love me?!” 

“Yes! Yes, I loved you! Yes, I hoped we would be something more, but I have Matthew and I really love him,” she sobbed. “So please, don’t ruin this friendship over some feelings.” A tear fell down her beautiful cheek and he wanted to wipe it away. But he refrained. He felt a stab of pain in his heart. 

“They aren’t just feelings to me Y/N! I’m in love with you! Gosh I’m so in love with you! I…I wrote a song for us. To sing. If you felt the same way about me. And I’m not trying to be a homewrecker, but I think deep down you feel the same,” Shawn threw some sheet music on the floor. “Call me if you change your mind. But until then, I really don’t think I can bear talking to you and not having you feel the same. It’s not fair to either of us.” And he left the room just like that. 

The next few weeks were rough for Y/N. She had an internal battle going on. She did love Matthew, she really did. But did she love him more than she loved Shawn? He was older than her. Almost by 12 years. Her being 20 and him being 32. 

“Y/N are you ok? You’ve been acting so differently lately.”

“I—Matthew. I don’t know. I’m so sorry. When Shawn came to my show a few weeks ago he planted this idea in my head that me and him are in love and I can’ stop thinking about it. Even though I know I love you.”

Matthew sighed. “I am a relationship guru,” he chuckled. “It is my job. And I…I was naïve to think that you were over him. I saw the way the two of you looked at each other. But I selfishly thought I could win you over. But even I can’t beat love.”

“Matthew I—”

“Don’t feel sorry for me. Please. Just, but happy with him,” He reached into her bed side drawer and pulled out the sheet music. “The song will be beautiful with your voice in it. Goodbye,” and he planted a chaste kiss on her lips, leaving her there wondering what to do. 

*****

The next day, Y/N had picked up her phone and dialed Shawn. Who answered on the first ring. “Hello,” he whispered breathlessly into the speaker. 

“I wish I could pretend I didn’t need you, but I can’t. Me and Matt broke up.”

“What does that mean,” he questioned tentatively, still not getting his hopes up. 

“It means that I love you. I have for a while and I’m ready to sing the duet.”

So, Y/N and Shawn spent weeks recording the song and perfecting it. Weeks where they stole glances at each other, but never did anything about it. They had talked the first day in the studio about what their relationship would look like from there on out. Y/N wanted time to make sure she was fully over Matt before diving in with Shawn. He was prepared to wait as long asit took for her. 

Finally, one day after filming a steamy scene for their music video, Y/N had pulled Shawn aside. “I know it’s taken me a while, but I’m finally ready.” Shawn couldn’t contain the smile on his face as he pulled her in for a short kiss and released his arms from around her waist. 

“Is it alright if I take you on a date first. I want to do this properly. I know everything is kind of backwards, but I would love to show you how I’ll be like as a boyfriend.” 

She nudged her nose against his as butterflies pooled in her stomach. “Give me a time and a date and I’ll be waiting for you.”

Shawn had never felt more nervous in his life than when he was on his way to Y/N’s hotel to pick her up for their date. Not when he had first gotten on that stage and there were millions of people looking back at him. Not even when he had told Y/N he loved her.

There date was in a private place, away from the paparazzi. Shawn had taken her on a hike into the mountains where they had a picnic and sunbathed in the warm June air. 

And the night was spent stargazing after Shawn had set up a tent for the two to spend the night in. One night turned into a week and the two had to finally head back down the mountain for their release party of Senorita. Otherwise, they would’ve stayed there forever, basking in the others love and warmth. 

Almost two weeks after that, Shawn had asked Y/N to be his girlfriend.

*****

Now six months later, they stood backstage, waiting to perform their new duet. The fans had their suspicions that Y/N and Shawn had been dating, but the two had been very careful and made sure to keep it on the down low. Y/N had joined Shawn on tour but would hide backstage to keep the rumors to a minimum. Tonight, they were planning on telling the world about their love for each other. 

“Just breathe babe. The fans already ship us. And no matter what happens out there, you should know that I love you and that’s not going to change. And if you really don’t want to go through with it, rub your nose against mine and I’ll know.”

Y/N nodded her head, softly kissing his lips before she walked out onto the stage, Shawn following close behind with his guitar in tow. 

They sang the song beautifully and Y/N couldn’t help the butterflies that appeared in her stomach as the song got closer and closer to the end. And when Shawn leaned in, she didn’t hesitate to let him place his libs on hers and pull her into a loving kiss as the audience went wild. 

*****

“We’re back on the James Corden Show with Shawn Mendes and Y/N L/N. But unlike a few years ago, they are together now. I would just like to say that I told you so,” he laughed as Y/N and Shawn cuddled up on the couch. 

“You know James, that night we really weren’t lying when we said we hadn’t made out. But actually, funny story. Later that night we decided to test it out and that was our first kiss.”

“You’re joking?!” 

“No, Shawn’s telling the truth. But we didn’t get together until July of this year. We were more than friends in December, but we were taking it slow. I had just gotten out of my relationship with Matt, and the whole thing was crazy.”

“So, you’re telling me that if I would’ve had you on my show a night later, the answer to my make out question would’ve been, yes?!”

Shawn and Y/N both nodded.