dated — january 27, 12:46AM
located — some club bih
with — @shaemynamexoxo
status — closed
With New Year a month in the past, Eoin knows, in his rational mind, that if ever he decides to develop a sense of caution, it's now. It's a new age, everyone's on high alert, it's the best time to keep your head down as a mutant. It's not business as usual for his kind, if there was ever something like usual business at all. Since the start of the year and the violence it brought, Eoin has found his world view changed once more; it seems like every decade brings that the things he knows, the attitude he's gotten used to, come crumbling down with violent revelation. Literal violent revelation. Every earthshaking shift in his worldly perceptions have been brought about by extreme violence. Perhaps next decade there'll be another violent shift.
But there's also things that remain the same. The consistent hollowness he desperately fills up with anger, violence, and drugs is still there, and he suspects it will stay there until his early demise. A violent life is a short life, after all. There are just some days, like today, where he can't bring himself to pretend to actually be a person. These are times where he just wants to transcend his entire being, leave it behind, dwell in higher dimensions, where his only responsibilities are to breathe and float. He's not a person there, he's nothing, and no one is there to break into him, to exert their demands onto him, to force him to function when he just wants to not do any of that.
It's the place he finds himself in now. A club with pounding music his brain isn't processing, in a nirvana of blood-shot eyes and unresponsiveness; the social part of the venue unable to reach him. He just exists in a crowd at different points on the sobriety spectrum, with Eoin at one extreme end of it. He stands at the bar — or rather, he hangs off it, arms folded on the counter with his face on his arms. There's a grunt as he's jostled, feels a pressure like someone bumps into him, and then a hand on his shoulder when he's pulled upright. His head lulls a bit, and there's something wet on his upper lip that he instinctively licks off.
His tongue registers bitter, a stinging, the taste foul, and then it's down his throat with a swallow. A word reaches his ears — mutant — but there's no additional cogs that turn to give it any meaning to him. And then a sharp, painful pressure to the face; and then the floor rushing up to meet the back of his head. Eoin blinks, once, up at the ceiling, at the faces above him looking down. A sharp pressure in his ribs, then his stomach when he turns on his side with a groan, his body curling instinctive.
The floor leaves him quickly, and Eoin vaguely wonders if it fell away. He isn't sure if he's falling, but there's a feeling like he's being held onto on both of his arms. Another sharp and equally painful pressure to his face knocks his head back; the same bitter stinging liquid fills his mouth, and without really thinking about it, Eoin forces the foul stuff out of his mouth. Less spitting rather than it is letting it drip out of his mouth.
And then there's the floor again, but this time it bites into his knees, his palms the only thing that keeps his face from kissing it with full force. Under him, the ground gains a voice. Hissing, smoking, protesting his presence on it. When Eoin spits out the blood still pooling in his mouth, it promptly burns a hole in the floor.