ā” Ā @sgnyuna Ā | Ā āyuna ~ do you ever get tired of being yourself, sometimes?ā
and this is probably something that she should not be discussing, shouldnāt even be mentioning whenever sian promised herself to move on from the events of seollal, tired of talking about it and practically exasperated of thinking about it -- but itās moreso an aftereffect, something that came about when she reflects upon herself and her image, something that has been at the back of her mind for a while but has now come to the forefront. it also doesnāt help that sheās on her second peach margarita and sheās feeling level where sheās feelling so nice, giddy and warm,Ā āi mean, not in like a super sad and depressing way where you wanna be someone else but like -- youāre bored with like, your image. you wanna change something up but itās something deeper than just a new hairstyle or shoes.ā because thatās the easy part, changing the material things of your image, but sian craves something more than that.
ābecause like, okay. i feel like right now -- you know how thereās those neighborhood oppas that are good at everything and stuff? i feel like iām his cute little sister, and everyone sees me that way. and that was fine up until i reaaaallly thought about it. i still like being cute, but iām a grown ass woman too! i wanna have some sex appeal, some kind of allure, you know?ā she wants that je ne sais quoi that has people coming back for more, that keeps them on their toes with curiosity. and sian feels like ha yuna is the epitome of what she desires -- and she makes it look so natural, as if she was born with class when she came straight out of the womb ( and, knowing her background, that probably is true. ) in all honesty, sheās thankful that the girl has enough generosity in her heart to befriend someone like sian, even if itās on the basis of sharing drinks together. itās why she reaches out to capture one of the otherās palm with both of her hands, raising it between them in complete sincerity ( and alcoholic stupor ),Ā āand you, my friend -- you are a god damn goddess in red bottom heels if i ever knew one, but you already knew that. like, even the way you pick up your glass makes me feel like i look like a baby with its first sippy cup,ā and she bursts out in laughter as she releases her grip on the other, using a hand to cover the hearty sounds slipping past her lips.
ābut anyways ... yeah. i tried to research on my own by googling how to gain sex appeal but it was full of worthless stuff.Ā āsmile moreā,Ā āhave confidenceā,Ā ābe yourselfā;Ā traaaash advice. i need actual steps that i can use,ā she states, sticking her tongue out lightly before taking another sip of her second drink, then turning to yuna as stars swim within auburn hues,Ā āso i was thinking that maybe you could teach me, since you are my sunbae after all? you make it look so easy and iām a quick learner when i actually try, and well ... i adore everything about you, but i just want to learn things that i can use to be a better version of me, you know? that cutie-sexy look, if you will.ā it sounds like complete opposites to her, but if some were able to make it work, sian knows that she would be able to as well -- and even moreso if yuna was there to guide her. so she finishes off with a grin that dazzles underneath the accent lighting, leaning her body in the other girlās direction so that sian delicately bumps her shoulder.Ā āpleeeease ~?ā