#sexychat

Here’s a little different version of Chat Noir 👀

I'm still conflicted by this episode and don't know all the reasons, why sometimes I feel affected by those little things in CC writing? or maybe all the time, he can had me mad big time and make me think he’s doing it on purpose, I accept the opinion of everyone else loving it, I did too, believe me I liked the episode, is one of those I’ll rewatch 913434535 times and more; but the sex shouldn’t be the only reason to say is the best X files episode ever, let alone to say the best script ever, can’t stop feeling that is like when you receive something you’ve been begging for 25 years, just to shut your mouth and as consequence of a big fight and in an intent for a forced reconciliation, “the shippers where heard” thing, I really don’t know how to explain it.

I’ll focus on the bed scene that is the most complicated part, I had that goofiest smile thinking about them before/after and imagining the during, cause we didn't get a single kiss, not even one in the forehead, none, cause that is CC ratification that they’re very divorced(separated, not in a relationship) you know; well it started promising a lot, she went to Mulder needing to be hold, she couldn’t sleep and not only because she was scared, she was and she knew it, but because the things that woman said, You’re and incomplete woman, you’re old, empty, you’re partner is too much for you, those things that HURT her, that would hurt anyone with her history.

She needed to talk, open her feeling, I thought for a moment that was too weird coming from Scully, like out of character, but then he is the man she loves, her partner and the man that knows her the most, and their private selves may be a constant outside work theme, when she started talking I instantly felt related, cause I've been there and know a lot o women are and have been there too. Isn’t easy to see that kind of conversation as one leading to sex, I would say that mostly to holding, tears and loving words from the other person but maybe some people feel like having sex after that, but well that’s not even a problem, at all.

My struggles are because Mulder is supposed to be a man of words, not only is in love with the woman, he’s a fucking psychologist but seem disabled, he doesn’t even try, and the reason is CC; he’s the one writing him that way, the wheelchair line was damn cute and again promising, but he kept punctuating they’re not in a relationship, they’re friends and when they get older they’ll still be around each other, with their own apart lives but there when the other may need a talk, a side by side wheelchairs nap or see if the other have a coin missing in the collection.

Since they’re not together he could meet someone, she asks like thinking she won’t fall in love again and will be hard for her seeing him doing his life with another woman and that woman can give him 435435 kids, I’ll tell you something from me, I'm 35 and married for 8 years, I don't have babies after years trying and doing everything was required, I know that naturally I won't have kids, and it sucks, I've had that kind of bed conversations with my husband who happens to be a little younger than me and that is one of the things that terrifies me since always, a lot, do I look old? What if you want kids and meet someone else that can give them to you?, even I've said to him that he can get whoever he wants, you're young and handsome and deserve more than carrying with a barren wife, and is fucking hard feel that way, now there is Scully, feeling empty a needing the right words and Mulder Says, well… you can do the same, you can meet someone else and have kids…. Like… really? For real? I’ll cry, again…

And then you know that they never, after all this years ever had the conversation about having other kids, taboo theme after William; for a couple with all that regrets and lack of communication, I don’t know how worked or didn’t according to Mr. Carter once and again; are comes the WORST part, So what’s stopping you Scully, why don’t you have more kids?... new show who dis? I know there are other options talking about having kids, adoption is one of those but for some is the last of the lasts options considering people want flesh of their flesh, blood of their blood, also ovaries transplants but at 53 years old? To generate ova and then use a surrogated mother, maybe maybe maybe, and also there are miracles (not medical rape) but if we haven’t had this clear… SHE DOESN’T HAVE ANYONE TO HAVE THOSE KIDS…

I’ll pause; I’ll drink some water because I could have a stroke with that line…. And Mulder stays with his shut down brain and says… You’re a woman of science. That’s all; why? Why? Not everything is about shippers and CC needed to emphasize over and over this and with the wound opened and bleeding think ¿what if we lose you jobs?...... WTF!!! WTF!!!... ATTHS with Scully’s doppelgänger watching…. I’m puzzled I swear.

Was so nice to think that they just had sex after so sexy inducing conversation and then Mulder freaking out because he saw his double, and in his panic his a little dick, the line about the dimmer in the afterglow, closed mind of mine? I want to hear nice things after sex, not something like that exactly. Thank you CC, thank you for making me love and hate something I love.

I’ll stop complaining about all this sooner or later, I feel a lot better after writing this and it’s just my opinion that no one will read because I wrote a lot in a language that is not my own and maybe it’s me that don’t understand the American jokes and stuff.

Everything else was hot and damn happy and creepy and the end won me back, the brother and sister, the actress doing both parts was amazing, loved the case.