When i first met you i never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you .. i never would have thought that i would have dreams about you .. or miss being with you the minute you leave .. when i first met you i didn't think id fall so fast .. a month to be exact .. you made sure i had a smile on my face no matter what .. when i wasn't okay , you made me talk .. and ill tell you, thats hard because when somethings bothering me i do not talk .. at all .. i bottle my emotions in until i lash out .. i am not perfect and it’s like that doesn't matter to you .. because no matter what you always tell me, it'll be okay.. and no matter what you make sure i am okay .... i just want to be the girl you can not live without, the one you can't stop thinking about .. For you too say that’s my baby && she’s my kinda crazy .. i am sorry for my mistakes and everything i’ve put you through .. you are my everything and always will be .. your smile keeps my going, the way you say i love you, makes me realize no matter what it'll always be me and you against this shitty thing we call life .. i really could not picture my life without you .. and the fact that you actually came back after everything we've been through the past seven months makes me realize you actually have love for me .. relationships are more then just holding her hand .. the way we are when were together makes me realize you’ll always have my back and i will always have yours .. yeah i lied and cheated and did whatever else . but for some weird reason this times feels different .. i don't have the wanting to talk to someone else or even entertain someone else .. I'm just expressing the feelings i have been holding on .. but i guess i wouldn't understand the way you're feeling about this because i hurt you, you didn't hurt me .. you never did one thing wrong .. but in the end i didn't just hurt you .. i hurt myself too .. because i pushed away the one person that actually truly gave a fuck about me .. and you were the person that would hold me while i cried .. i just want us to be okay .. i don't want to go every day thinking / knowing you are scared and what ever else you are feeling .. i love you so much .. and it has always been 10.27.17 .. i want a future with you .. i want everything with you .. i just need you to promise that you can deal with me on my bad days .. because they do come and go... i have bad moments too .. i just want us to love each other and be okay .. <3 after everything we have been through i hope us loving each other is enough to get through it ..