#session06

Ali: BUT WHAT ARE YOU EXACTLY THEN!?

I just... I keep wanting to like... I don’t even know how to put it. I have like a sadness and pain and suffering kept inside of me behind the dam made out of confussion. 

And like... the key to that dam is “Homura is a witch”. And I keep wanting to decide that this is what is happening and then just let everything out and write some ass long post about what I feel.

But at the same time I don’t want to just fall into despair and make myself miserable for no reason if it turns out I am wrong.

Ali: What the  hell does that even mean?

It’s going to ruin all my theories, isn’t it? Whatever this will do, whatever will happen now, it will ruin everything I thought of so far, right? 

Ali: What the hell is happening. This is definitely more than 100 metres. It’s probably like twice or thrice as many. Or maybe even more. And she is still standing there. Still completely conscious. 

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

Is that what she hoped would happen? Is that what she expected would happen? How in the world she could have any suspicion of that? 

And... And... why? Why is she fine? Is she not a magical girl suddently? Was that just an illusion too? Or like.... What. 

Just what what what what!?

She seems shocked but I am not even sure about what exactly. Did she hope she would be knocked out? Is that not what she wanted to happen? 

Ali: What are you doing, what are you trying to find out, what is the purpose of this experiment, I can’t follow you anymoooooooooooooore.

AND I AM SCARED! BECAUSE THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN’T REALLY TAKE BACK! Once you away and you get knocked out, you can’t really return yourself to your body. 

Ali: Also, it’s such a wholesome think to know that Madoka came there to save Homura! Of course she would, sha cares about Homura! But it’s nice to know for a fact that she did it. 

What could she do though? 

Also, she is a concept. 

You can’t trap a concept.

HMMMMM.

Something is off. 

I mean, uh. 

Maybe I am overthinking this, but I am having one issue here. 

Mami and Kyoko are actual people. I assume what happened is that their souls are trapped, and their bodies are knocked out. Unconscious. I think that’s sensible assumption, it’s not like Homura physically stuffed them into her gem, right? 

Sayaka is kinda... problematic? I guess? But still, there was a point in time when she was alive and everything. You can probably drag her soul from some point in time. Or like some kind of... “existence” of Sayaka. And it makes sense she knows stuff. It really is Sayaka, but probably like a whole? God, that makes no sense. I mean, since Sayaka is dead from Homura’s pov, then she kinda dragged in Sayaka’s soul, a combination of all Sayaka’s from all the times. If that makes sense. Like, even if Sayaka is dead, her soul still exists. You can suck it in. 

But things get complicated when it come to Madoka. She is not really real. Does she even have a soul? She is just a concept. She is everywhere and everywhen. She literally doesn’t exist. It’s not that she was alive once and then died. She never existed in this world. Never ever.  And she came there by herself. 

But... hmmm...I can hardly imagine that Homura just sucked in a whole concept into her Soul Gem. Sucked in whole Hope. That seems impossible. 

I am not sure what I am getting at. What I am pondering about is that... even though the Madoka inside Homura’s soul gem is actually Madokami, would not she be still existing outside Homura’s soul gem anyway?

So she is not really trapped in there. More like also cut off from herself? 

What would that even mean though?

Ok, well, for starters that would mean we have currently two “instances” of Madoka. 

One personification inside Homura’s Soul Gem.

And one that is still a God outside. 

This feels stupid. I don’t know about this... But I just cannot imagine you sucking in a god inside there. 

How does that help anyway? I mean, even if that is true in some way then still... The field keeps them trapped. Even if Madoka inside Homura’s Soul Gem becomes aware of who and what she is, would she have any power? She is probably cut out from it too. 

Ali: Ok, so... basically, this new world is still dependant on Madoka. I mean, uh... They cut Homura out from the Law of Cycles, so they kinda cut her out from the God Madoka’s influence. 

And it’s not that Madoka just made witches magically stop existing. She said “by my own hands” in that wish she made. She is the one going around through time and space and pretty much just killing witches in the same second they are created.

It’s not that she created a world in which witches stopped existing, she created a world in which she has the power to  infallibly and instantly get rid of them.

The concept of witches itself is not really non-existing. So if Inkubators somehow - because seriously, how you do something like that? -  managed to isolate Homura from Madoka’s god power, she can still turn into a witch just fine. 

... How this movie can end with anything good for Homura?

Because she can either stay trapped forever in that field and suffer. 

Or she can somehow get out from the field and then Madoka comes and one-shots her, because if not in the field, then she is back in Madoka’s influence and she can kill the witch when she is made. 

Ali: So... she is not a witch...?

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