DVD commentary fic thing: You're Weird, Wheeler, from "It doesnât happen though." to "I guessed. An educated guess. But a guess all the same.â Because yaaaaaay, slowburn! (Insert that gif of Elmo with fire behind him here)
(For the DVD commentary ask meme - still taking requests btw)
This passage is taken from Youâre Weird Wheeler - and so obviously, spoilers for that story if you havenât read it.
It doesnât happen though. Will returns to him at the bar. Mike still feels queerly deflated though. They have a few more drinks and then they head home.
âI wouldnât have gone with him you knowâŚâÂ
Will slurs only slightly. Itâs later that night and Mike is sitting on his assigned bed applying moisturiser to his feet. His heels have a tendency to get really, really dry overnight.
Fun fact: I spent so much time trying to decide what Mike should be doing in this scene. I knew I wanted him to be sitting on the bed and I just felt like he should be DOING something. I have no idea whether this is a thing guys do. But I landed on applying moisturiser to feet cause thats something *I* do before going to bed. Ha ha.Â
Mike looks up and gives him a questioning glance.
âBenjiâ Will clarifies, âI wouldnât have gone home with him. Not while youâre here. I just want to be with you when youâre here.âÂ
This is Will throwing out some bait, trying to see if Mike will take it. How he will react. That emphasis he puts on being with Mike over anyone else is his way of saying âim here, im yours, are you too thickheaded to realise that??â
âOh. Right. Thatâs good.â Mike smiles up at where his friend appears to be swaying to imaginary music, his fingers clutched around a glass of water.
Suddenly Will is bouncing down on the bed next to him.
âYa know. Youâre cute when youâre jealous.â
I decided to make Will confident in this story. Borderline cocky. By this point he has a very strong idea that Mike might be into guys. Might be into *him*. And so like this moment. This is him just taking that last lunge for the both of them. Sick of the dancing around it. Theyâve been doing that for the last few days. And if at the beginning of Mikeâs visit he wasnât quite sure, now heâs almost positive.
âI wasnât jealousâ Mike replies immediately.Â
Water slops over the edge of the glass as Will holds both his hands up in surrender.
âOk I retract. Sulky then. Youâre cute when youâre sulky.â
Mike is blushing. He canât help it. He should really be drinking water too. Blood and alcohol are pulsing through his veins, rendering his brain-to-mouth function slightly useless. Before he can think better of it heâs responding âYou think Iâm cute?â
Will seems to pause and look at him then. His lips curling into a impish smile as his head bobs up and down slowly in a nod.
Was it hot in here? It was as if Mike could feel the sweat pooling into the collar of his nightshirt as he plucks at it nervously.
âTruth be toldâŚâ Mikeâs head whips back up as Will continues to muse. Irritatingly casual. He is looking at his glass of water as though its a snow globe. As though the precipitation beading on the outside of it is a thing of beauty. â⌠I think youâre fucking sexy.â
His eyes slowly slide from the small droplets of water back to Mikeâs shocked face. And there must have been something that he is seeking. Something he finds in Mikeâs eyes - because he smiles. And Mike canât help but groan.
I love this part. Itâs just such a departure from the shy, slightly awkward Will that was in the beginning of this story. *This* Will is fully confident in his sexuality. In his sexual allure. And he knows his best friend. He knew he just had to search Mikeâs face after saying something as *forward* as that to get his answer. And he got it. Which is why he smiles. I just really love it.Â
âDonât say things like thatâŚâ Mike croaks, his throat dry and his blood buzzing.
The smile grows into a chesire grin. âWhy not?â
âBecauseâ Mike only takes an eighth of a moment to bother with hesitation, âbecause then I have to do this.â
âAn eighth of a second to bother with hesitationâ - i like that because i feel like it bucks that trope of searching each others faces slowly leaning in before having a first kiss. Will has been brave and laid out his cards. And now Mike is going to do the same without hesitation.
And they are kissing. The water glass drops to the floor with a thud as hot lips crash against hot lips. As gasps are sucked from one mouth into another. Hands gripping hair. More hands bunching up sleepshirts.Â
Mike pushes Will down against the bed and feels a little put out when Will giggles with the action. Like he knew this was going to happen. He kisses him fiercely in retaliation, his body climbing over Willâs slighter form. All the better to feel everything as he lowers his body down to lie deliciously against every inch of his friendâs.
I liked making Mike a bit miffed with Willâs apparent self-satisfaction. It just seemed like a real boys-y, best friend, rivalry sort of reaction. Which is important for me to keep as a foundation of Will and Mikeâs relationship at all times.
This pulls a moan from Will who interrupts the kiss to throw his head to the side and pant, his hands rubbing over Mikeâs lower back. He looks up at Mike angelically as he proceeds to grab two handfuls of Mikeâs ass and grind his hips up into Mikeâs undeniable erection.
I get the feeling that Will is trying to show off in some regard here. To show Mike that he isnât some delicate flower. That heâs a sexual being and he WILL NOT be shy about it.Â
Mikeâs breath hitches and his arms tremble where they are standing as unsteady columns either side of Willâs head.
âYou fuckâ he pants. âHow did you know?â
This gives Will pause. He lets go of Mikeâs ass and smoothes his hands back up to the middle of his back.
âI, I didnât knowâ his eyes blink widely, and he sounds almost completely sober. âIâ well⌠I hoped. Iâve kind of hoped for years⌠but I didnât, wellâ I didnât know for sure. I guessed. An educated guess. But a guess all the same.â
And all of a sudden the cockiness just slides away from Will. Its no longer important for him to be smug or âvictoriousâ. He doesnât want Mike thinking this is just some meaningless game to him. He wants Mike to understand the context. That this was truly a gamble for him. That heâs not arrogant enough to think Mike was just going to fall to his knees. This moment is the culmination of a lot of time spent agonising and wondering if he was just imaginging things. Or being too hopeful for something that heâd desired since childhood. He was *not* sure. He hoped. And he put trust in his friend and his instincts and just hoped he wouldnât fall.Â
And thats that. Thanks Gwen. That was fun! :)