#serastarmoon

Sitting and waiting for the #rain at work. Come on #monsoon we need you. #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CglcUlCuFZq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I made it to the black key tag. 2 years #clean today. Can’t lie and say life is amazing. I am clean though and that’s pretty cool. They tell you that your brain will start to get better after a couple of years clean. I can say it will get easier to live everyday life without the constant anxiety or fear. There is more clarity. For me, i can’t say that my mental health is totally healed and that I’m so happy now. I have C-PTSD so that is going to be a life long struggle for me. I’m having a hard time with that even though I e been in treatment for 2 years now. But, I am clean. I don’t have to get high. I go to bed every night. My life is pretty quiet and mostly lonely and boring. I still do t care to be close to people. I don’t think that’s going to change. But, I am clean. For what that is worth. For 2 years I have not put chemicals in my body to alter my state of mind. So, it’s something. #tweakerscanrecover #serastarmoon #serastar #stardustandmoonshadows #recovery #lifeaftermeth (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQZENh2BKNU/?utm_medium=tumblr

Seriously, choosing the 15 year old to be my gym buddy is kicking my ass! I don’t think I will be walking tomorrow. This gym journey is not for chumps. #serastar #serastarmoon #newgoals (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNY92BChQz9/?igshid=1m0jt3vseuvha

After a sad therapy session today I thought I would continue weaving the hermit cocoon around myself. But @sofa_rocks and @chetangoodshield dragged me out of the cave and onto an amazing walk in the Tucson Mountains. We saw so much wildlife and the rocks are beautiful. The highlight for me was a buck and doe grazing the west side of a ravine. The doe looked like she was pregnant, but might have just been a chubby girl like me. The kids walked on but I had to stand and cry for awhile. She grazed and stared at me in calming intervals. At one point we locked eyes for a very long time and I knew she is royalty. I bowed to my Princess and left her to enjoy the greens. On our way back the sun was setting and we rounded a bend in time to see la Luna hanging like a piece of magick ice just over the ridge in front of us. Just a few hours from full she reminded me that it comes, it goes, it comes again. The love. The pain. The joy. The loss. All come and go like her shadows and light. Perhaps one day I will be able to endure the changes with the same beauty and grace as The Moon. #desertgoddess #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #tweakerscanrecover #sonorandesert #recentering #mooncycles (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKkqIBPBb2C/?igshid=1p4undfppnaac

Xmas with #covid super fun. Hope y’all are being safe and distant! #serastar #serastarmoon (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJOrO12h_iK/?igshid=3y5xtq677499

Things that happened over the weekend. My daughter and I stuck needles in our ears. My cat tried to find his dink. #momcaptions #backtolife #lifeofserastar #serastarmoon (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIM06tcB3Gn/?igshid=1j5n6667c79yn

Happy Maybon! #equinox #magick #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows Bye bye summer bye bye #virgoseason♍️ Hello fall! Hello #libraseason♎️ (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFcW4FPh9ny/?igshid=9guai2yzo8cz

So much is happening right now. I just 2 nites a’ho learned that someone who held acreage in my heart, who I thought was ignoring me because they were in active addiction, died at the end of June. My heart, it’s so raw. LOVE YOUR PEOPLES. Tell them how much they mean. Kiss them. Hug them. Make sure u say the words because one day they are here and then...gone. Today I’m dressing up on the outside to honor my girl who never left home without her lashes. Tomorrow would have been her 29th birthday. She didn’t make it. This disease is murdering addicts. It’s no joke. People die from #addiction. We can fucking #recover it’s hard and pain and tiring. But we can! #tweakerscanrecover #serastarmoon #serastar #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFCuDe4BSBP/?igshid=b477637992ux