Sitting and waiting for the #rain at work. Come on #monsoon we need you. #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CglcUlCuFZq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I made it to the black key tag. 2 years #clean today. Can’t lie and say life is amazing. I am clean though and that’s pretty cool. They tell you that your brain will start to get better after a couple of years clean. I can say it will get easier to live everyday life without the constant anxiety or fear. There is more clarity. For me, i can’t say that my mental health is totally healed and that I’m so happy now. I have C-PTSD so that is going to be a life long struggle for me. I’m having a hard time with that even though I e been in treatment for 2 years now. But, I am clean. I don’t have to get high. I go to bed every night. My life is pretty quiet and mostly lonely and boring. I still do t care to be close to people. I don’t think that’s going to change. But, I am clean. For what that is worth. For 2 years I have not put chemicals in my body to alter my state of mind. So, it’s something. #tweakerscanrecover #serastarmoon #serastar #stardustandmoonshadows #recovery #lifeaftermeth (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQZENh2BKNU/?utm_medium=tumblr

After a sad therapy session today I thought I would continue weaving the hermit cocoon around myself. But @sofa_rocks and @chetangoodshield dragged me out of the cave and onto an amazing walk in the Tucson Mountains. We saw so much wildlife and the rocks are beautiful. The highlight for me was a buck and doe grazing the west side of a ravine. The doe looked like she was pregnant, but might have just been a chubby girl like me. The kids walked on but I had to stand and cry for awhile. She grazed and stared at me in calming intervals. At one point we locked eyes for a very long time and I knew she is royalty. I bowed to my Princess and left her to enjoy the greens. On our way back the sun was setting and we rounded a bend in time to see la Luna hanging like a piece of magick ice just over the ridge in front of us. Just a few hours from full she reminded me that it comes, it goes, it comes again. The love. The pain. The joy. The loss. All come and go like her shadows and light. Perhaps one day I will be able to endure the changes with the same beauty and grace as The Moon. #desertgoddess #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #tweakerscanrecover #sonorandesert #recentering #mooncycles (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKkqIBPBb2C/?igshid=1p4undfppnaac

Oh how I love being a blonde. This year for Halloween (or any day since I plan to rock this cheap ass doll hair shit all over Tucson no matter the day) instead of appropriating a culture or being a racist, xenophobic, fucktwat—Just go blonde and pretend for one day that it’s possible to have fun dressing up without being a Dick. OR—dress up as a Dick and live your best orgasm! #serastar #stardustandmoonshadows #justhavefun (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFv6M9WhxF9/?igshid=kw4marklco1k

Happy Maybon! #equinox #magick #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows Bye bye summer bye bye #virgoseason♍️ Hello fall! Hello #libraseason♎️ (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFcW4FPh9ny/?igshid=9guai2yzo8cz

Last sunrise in Mexico 🇲🇽 for now. What an amazing color show and the waves are so pretty. Today I have 444 days clean. A powerful number to end a powerful trip. In this last 14 months I’ve driven across the country to see my grandson born, to the Rockies to commune with The Fey, and now to Mexico to let go of pain. My life is more amazing than I thought it ever could be—-and I am just getting started. Who will I be a year from now? 5? 10? I don’t know. I only know that NOTHING CAN STOP MY #FLOW #tweakerscanrecover #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #ocean #atlantisheart #IAm (at Rocky Point Puerto Penasco) https://www.instagram.com/p/CE1kvIshbLO/?igshid=1fzsnb66rfdhs

In case you ever wondered if how big it is 😂🖤🇲🇽🇲🇽 #mexico #vivalamexico #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows #seasidedream https://www.instagram.com/p/CEzPi2yBNpv/?igshid=14z9jn9zammfy

Had a fucking amazing day full of stories, beach life, and such. #vivalamexico🇲🇽 #vacation #serastar #serastarmoon #stardustandmoonshadows (at El Carcamo, Puerto Peñasco) https://www.instagram.com/p/CExygynhb7b/?igshid=152hwzpcyfk1w