May 21
direly missing my fictional industrial grade mixer from siivagunner. my baby my baby
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direly missing my fictional industrial grade mixer from siivagunner. my baby my baby
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It's very funny to me how Vyvian seemingly exclusively refers to my source character as "Dr. Malcolm". I know it's to maintain the distinction between him as a character and me as an alter. But it's funny because it's such a formal fucking thing to only ever call the character you literally self-ship with LMAO
I love how everyone knows enough about The Man Who Fell to Earth to think it's awesome when I explain my Discord icon is from that movie because I self-ship with the protagonist, but they do *not* know enough about that movie to reality-check me on how much I wouldn't *want* to date that character LMAO
I have a new self-ship and I like it a lot but I also feel very weird about it.
It is with an OC who is a fictionalized version of Trent Reznor. This is the least weird thing about the self-ship. Other weird things about it include some of my history with the OC and the origins of the OC in the first place.
I feel like I can't talk about this OC due to his origins, but the self-ship is a major source of comfort for me right now. This means that, basically, one of the most important things to me right now is something I can only really talk about with two people.
The thing is, I think I'm actually okay with that. Living in this town and participating in the in-person community so much while not talking about my online life in any real detail, that's made me more used to the idea that the important things don't have to be known about by anyone else. He's not a secret in the self-ship (like in the AU everyone knows we're dating), so it's okay he's a secret everywhere else.
i think the lesson to be taken from my suffering with [redacted] is.. never trust a bitch who dont fw lyle rath
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Thinking about the Copia self-ship (that's who it's with JSDIFOGSF) and while I headcanon him as alloromantic and my relationship with my fictive of him is strictly romantic (not platonic past the extent required for the foundation of a romantic relationship), I kind of want this version of the self-ship to involve some level where I/my self-insert can't tell if it's platonic or romantic.
How much of this is kink and how much of this is just one person helping another person manage their mental illness in ways that don't attempt to overcome the disorder
Additionally I think my therapist would like the insights the self-ship could provide on what a person with DPD wants in the context of a relationship that involves kink and that presents in a way that is mistakeable for a few other conditions.