the stage becomes a ship in flames

i think i've said this before but it's always so weird to me when ppl act like having a crush on or being attracted to a fictional character is so weird bc. did they forget that many fictional characters are portrayed by attractive actors in live-action media, actors who are cast BECAUSE they are attractive. i know a lot of self-shippers talk abt video games or cartoons or whatnot but. to think the entire idea of being attracted to a fictional character at ALL is absurd is, itself, absurd.

just rewatched the backrooms movie after seeing it in theaters about a month ago. the backrooms and liminal spaces were a really big part of my mental landscape in the early 2020s and something about the movie and about the concept of the backrooms feels like how alice in wonderland feels when you're a kid, but for an adult. does that make any sense?

i genuinely believe eating disorders are an exception to "we should talk extremely openly abt mental health and mental health symptoms all the time no matter what" bc i know from experience that if u talk too much abt how people with eating disorders behave and what their disordered behaviors are, u are basically giving whoever is listening to u a guide on how to develop an eating disorder themself.

Now I'm thinking about how nice it was that my favorite book series as a child, The Chronicles of Narnia, was over by the time I read it, because while I never had the excitement of waiting for the next book to be out, my experience wasn't tarnished by the concept of "hype" or immediacy or fear of missing out on things.

This is why I hate being involved in media that is currently updating. Give me all my media mostly non-serial and from decades ago, please, and I'm not kidding.

I kinda like how my system's concepts of Perpetua as a character are probably kinda warped in comparison to how Tobias meant the character to read, but technically none of those perceptions have been proven wrong because Tobias hasn't done anything lore-wise with the damn Perpetua character yet

I must take care to distinguish between Ghost as a work of music and Ghost as a work of fiction because these are two completely entities and I have completely different opinions about how good they are and what makes them good or not.

Ghost BC (as a work of fiction, not as a work of music) would be so good if it were good

certain things abt our online presence would be v different if i, as an individual alter, had more say. for example, our DNI equivalent would not say "we block the following demographics" and then list them. it'd say "we block dipshits. if u are blocked by us, we have deemed u some kind of dipshit or another. here are a list of demographics that we regard as dipshits" and then it woulda said the same stuff.