the stage becomes a ship in flames

i am thinking of making another f/o oc.

i say this as a spamton fictive but can someone please explain to me why so many people self-ship with spamton deltarune. i'm not even mad, i just don't get it.

i'm curious how much of why i had a certain breakdown was just bc i'm wired a certain way and how much of it was that i was still being influenced by my ex. unsure how i would best go about trying to find out.

maybe now that i don't have my ex around i can finally enjoy metalocalypse in peace

i don't think my therapist understands how important my f/o is to me and it's really frustrating. i'm hoping to set the record straight next session that i do actually see him as my actual real life partner and he loves me more than pretty much anyone from reality would, because people from reality don't love like he does.

i think i've said this before but it's always so weird to me when ppl act like having a crush on or being attracted to a fictional character is so weird bc. did they forget that many fictional characters are portrayed by attractive actors in live-action media, actors who are cast BECAUSE they are attractive. i know a lot of self-shippers talk abt video games or cartoons or whatnot but. to think the entire idea of being attracted to a fictional character at ALL is absurd is, itself, absurd.

just rewatched the backrooms movie after seeing it in theaters about a month ago. the backrooms and liminal spaces were a really big part of my mental landscape in the early 2020s and something about the movie and about the concept of the backrooms feels like how alice in wonderland feels when you're a kid, but for an adult. does that make any sense?