#selfship animation

I spent so many hours on just one minute of animation it’s ridiculous 🤪

Actually, these few frames bring me so much comfort, love, and warmth that, at the same time, I feel such terrible sadness and disappointment that I can’t experience this comfort in reality, only in my imagination

I don’t consider myself a particularly touchy person with those around me. I can hug my friends if they initiate it, but it’s always quick and not very tight. But I desperately want someone to be close to me long enough to just lie there in their embrace and feel the weight of their arms on me

When someone strokes my back, I feel a deep sense of love, because I immediately feel as if I’ve been taken back to my childhood, when I was gently stroked on the back as I fell asleep. I miss that right now

It’s really frustrating to live in a state of not understanding myself, not knowing what to do or what all my feelings and thoughts mean. It’s as if everything is on pause, and so am I

Depression sucks, or something like that 👎

I like to think that Herman accepts me completely and doesn't blame me for not being able to invest enough emotionally in him, and that our relationship can be 30% to 70%, and that he's perfectly fine with that because he understands me and isn't afraid of my emotions

And for him, it’s completely normal to be with me even on the worst days, when he knows I’m not capable of doing anything or even just existing. Because he loves me even then

Your f/o loves you just the way you are because you love them just as much in return 🫵

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