Self Pep Talk
I had to take a time out and acknowledge myself.Ā I am my own parent now.Ā I donāt have to bottle up my stress. I donāt have to push myself past my personal limit no matter how arrogant society is about how they can do it faster than me.Ā I was smart for listening to my gut 5 years ago when I started to get rid of clutter.Ā I have downsized so much that this sudden move is a much lighter load and I am still throwing things away and letting go this time around too.Ā I am proud of myself for not having much at all.Ā Maybe this is best for me, to pay weekly versus monthly.Ā I just have to bite off smaller chunks than the next person. I require frequent breaks more-so than the next person.Ā So be it.Ā I can only accept myself as I am.Ā Moderation is best for me.Ā This is just at temporary repositioning.Ā Along the way I will be working for myself, paying off this debt and applying for a second chance home. I might as well start that process now because I am sure that might take some time to find the right mutual fit.Ā Maybe all the bad things that my anxiety is trying to create in my mind wonāt happen.Ā But, Iām prepared just in case they do.Ā Ā
I learned a lot during the 4 months I lived in this home.Ā I grew more than I realized in this short season.Ā I am remembering that it doesnāt take much to make me happy.Ā This is simplicity manifesting.Ā My happiness comes from within.Ā I refuse to accept defeat.Ā So I have an eviction.Ā Do I really want to spend the next 7 years hating myself for that or do I want to make my life over during that time? Do I want to live as much as I can possibly live.Ā Do I want to enjoy every fucking moment even more so?Ā YES.Ā YES.Ā YES.Ā YES!!Ā Ā
I broke up with religion/God/The Bible/Christianity.Ā Thatās a huge loss this year.Ā I conquered a fear and it is bringing in money that is carrying me through this transition.Ā If I had not trusted myself and let this F.E.A.R continue to abuse me, I would really be screwed right now.Ā No doubt about it.Ā Itās time to acknowledge me, myself and my power.Ā Ā
I give myself permission to cry when it hurts.
I give myself permission to rise when Iām strong.
I give myself permission to honor what is natural to me.Ā Ā
I honor myself.Ā
I have all the power and control and imagination to make my life exactly as I want it to be.Ā I realize that now that I allowed myself to live life at my pace and not the rest of society.Ā Ā














