Sep 2, 2020
(Trigger warning: Self harm)
Having a really rough time rn..ended up doing self injurious stims >< (not fun and very painful).
I'm trying my best to calm down..but it's really hard.
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(Trigger warning: Self harm)
Having a really rough time rn..ended up doing self injurious stims >< (not fun and very painful).
I'm trying my best to calm down..but it's really hard.
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Feeling so discouraged lately about my art.. Hitting myself in the process cuz I'm so mad at myself😢😢😢 new bad stim of mine is hitting my chest with my fist
I'm so upset and I don't know what to do😭
Heyyo, so I've been in a weird state of mind recently. There's been a lot going on in my life that I will hopefully make a video about when I am more confident in myself but right naow it's hard to take photos of myself without makeup. Like, I don't hate my face or anything like that I just hate what I'm doing to my face (without makeup) and body. I don't know if it counts as self harm, but it is a thing that increases with lack of sleep, stress and anxiety- which are all things I am experiencing and not actively trying to fix. I've been seeing a psychologist to figure out what I have and ways to manage it. *Ignore my weird yaoi hands situation* #kittengirl #kittenplaycommunity #anxietymention #selfharmmention #AbbeyNeko #SqueaktheKitteh
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I hadn’t self-harmed in weeks, months ?? Then I relapse 3 times in 1 week ? I am so weak. I really am a failure.
Never show sisters scars
Me: hay mind if i take my sweater off? Sister:sure, you dont need to ask Me: yea i do, you might not like what you see on my arm Sister: what wha- Me: *THROWS SWEATER OFF* I was stupid :/ Sister: OH MY FUCKING GOD YOU FUCKING IDIOT WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!? THERE MUST OF BEEN SO MUCH BLOOD! Ahhhhhh! DID IT HURT, WHY WHY WHY?
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12:23 AM: Feeling Everything
I feel everything. I feel my heart beating, my lungs inflate and deflate. I feel my thoughts swimming in my head, a tangled mess of memories and thoughts and unanswered prayers. I feel alive. I feel dead. I feel the sting in my eyes of when you said it was all my fault and that you couldn't take it anymore. That you couldn't take me anymore. I feel the burn in my chest of every single glass of Jack or Vodka I downed to try and erase you from my head. I feel every single scar on my arm from when I realized I couldn't erase you. I feel the comfort of when I was crying over you, a mess of tears and makeup and emotions, and he pulled me in close to his chest and I realized our heartbeats were in sync. I feel the softness of his lips and the roughness of his hands. I just feel everything. I feel so dead, but oh my God am I so alive.