I have been on my spiritual journey for quite a while now, whilst i am still learning how to remove all those negative comments and thoughts inside my head, its been a hard journey which i doubt ill ever move away from.ย
I have mediated everyday, read different thoughts and opinions on how to be indirectly a better person, but more so, how to manifest everything into my life that i should have been on in the first place. i have been thinking alot and found i actually have alot of negative energy that has build up in my sub concious.ย
I still find to this day that i struggle with negative thoughts, alot of it to do with i am a veryย โright here right nowโ kind of person, and thats one thing i need to let go of, i have realised i have this constant thought and worry thatย โtime is running outโ, because of society! believe it or not, somewhere deep down we have realised that much of our ourselfs is created through what has happened in our lifes as children. Iโm 26 years old with a masters degree, no boyfriend in a low paid job and live with my mum, at the same time i get theย โwhen are you getting a boyfriend, settling down? having a family?โ - mm WHEN IM GOOD AND READY! to be toldย โif you leave it too late you dont be able to have a familyโ ...thanks. Dont get me wrong, i would love to have a family of my own, but right now iโm 26 and havenโt even established my life yet, before giving birth to another. I havenโt found the right guy who shares my joy and ambition. I
I realise i sound like iโm lagging behind in life, but i sorely believe that my sucess will come when its supposed to come and by forcing it, it sends a desperation vibe and the universe doesnโt respond to that. I might not be in the career i have always dreamed of and jetting around the world with it, for my perfect partner to be right by my side. I am right were i am supposed to be in life, something is teaching me a lesson to get ready for the next chapter, its teaching me to be patient and empathetic.
Everyday is a new challenge. I am willing to take on the challenge.