#self-inventory

In the clearing of the mists, lives a figure. A resident of the citadel, who chose to walk past it's hallowed grounds. He inhabits a small corner now, a fragment. in an avenue that none bother to stop and look. It's sidewalks are filled with tiny fissures and cracks. If you stare at them long enough, you can almost feel yourself slipping through them. As you walk through the plaza and it's corridors, the weight of thoughts will cast a burden to your steps. Like a grim shadow that dances around the street's post lights. His mind is like a stack of dominos. Always looking straight ahead and in different ways- intuitive. Bridging the gap between flames and sparks, at the risk of treading past the fine line it walks, and the whole thing collapsing. He is looking for something: searching. When the rare passers-by approaches, his eyes glaze over as if he were looking past them. Within himself, he has built a fortress. A monument, from where he can elevate to the heights and observe. Beyond its walls lies a forest fire. A conflagration that could warm the world if he tried. Damaging no one except perhaps himself. In a small outpost stationed near the alley-way, is a place where the tiny figure sometimes liked to retreat. A slum, where a vast array of junk became his own little paradise. Among it, was a small little radio he found. Blaring in full details the signs of the times, and the marvellous colors it uses to paint the world around it bleak. Bobbing in and out of different frequencies, he sometimes finds it hard to stay afloat. With all the tides of change around him, he has then tried to learn how to breathe underwater. In this avenue, was a universe slowly expanding, and carrying along with it, it's own merry band of anomalies. Some day, he plans to build a home there and hopefully share it with someone living around the same residence.

What makes this possible is creating your positive force field that constantly surrounds and protects you.  You can create this force field of positivity by only having quality positive thoughts, perceptions and progressions.  Once you get on your positive game...ain't nothing in this world that can stop your rise, shine & grind... Believe that! Not nobody, not even yourself.

We must learn to care for the entireties of our bodies, minds, souls and spirits  We must be vigilant about our emotional landscapes, understand where our emotions come from, if they are logical/valid, reassess our conditioned responses and recognize negative patterns of behavior in ourselves as well as others.  Especially; those who we spent the most of our time with.  Understand these changes do not happen overnight, they are things we must constantly work on (throughout our lives) as the threat of negativity is always imminent. 

No matter what I try, how I try, nothing ever really ends up the way I want.  Nothing... no matter how much planning or thinking goes into it ... doesn't matter.  Life works out the way it is supposed to.... whether we try to influence it positively and/or negatively.... it always works out how it was going to go ....  I decided at this point in my life... if it is too painful to be around... then I don't want it in my life.... I will address whatever it is and do whatever I can to prevent anything from crippling me emotionally or mentally.  No matter how ugly it looks... I will look at it in its face and then proceed to rip it's face off.  Beast Mode.