#self-centric

I'm not really amazing at anything. I'm good at a lot of things, sure, but even then most of the things I work at are always just passable, just at par, just good enough. There's nothing that I really manage to go above and beyond at. I have nothing that wows anybody, nothing that's even come close to moving anyone. I know a little about a lot of things but not a lot about even one thing. 

I'm like this with people, too. I get along with everyone but I don't have any person[s] that is/are particularly close to me. Lots of nice connections, but nothing really strong. 

I wonder if there's a correlation between such things?

Maybe if I can push myself to be good at something... or maybe if I can track down even one person that is genuinely connected to me as an entire person... maybe then I can dive off this plateau and find something I'm really good at, or find someone I can call a true friend.

I wonder if this will ever happen to me? Rather, I wonder if I could ever make this happen. 

Better yet, I wonder if I could ever allow this to happen.

...the most powerful known so far, Arceus is, according to legend, the creator of the Pokémon universe. Born of an Egg in the chaos at the beginning, Arceus's powers were awakened immediately, and from itself it made time and space, matter and antimatter, and set Dialga,Palkia, and Giratina to guard them. It created spirit as well, setting Uxie in charge of knowledge, Mesprit in charge of emotion, and Azelf in charge of willpower, before falling into an eternal slumber.

Apparently you just climb a mountain, blow on a flute, and God wakes up for you to snatch him in a Masterball so you can finally beat your older cousin...

The world is to humans just a barrage, a constant stream of emotions and feelings. What are feelings and emotions? Separate from the body, no. Inside the mind, yes. But the mind is outside of the body? No. The mind is an elaborate image, a magical, wonderful mirage of some mystical sense outside of the brain.

But take away the brain, and the mind disappears. The mind is inside of the brain, and the brain is only chain after chain of reactions. Each thing that appears in the mind is just another set of chemicals. Each image that you see, each ghost that you might witness, each child you pick up and hold as your own is a set of chemicals.

So what is reality? Reality is- strangely- relative. Your reality is yours. I cannot take it away from you, because your mind is separate from my own. I can only send ships across the seas to transport ideas into your mind or island. Thus, there is no true reality from what I can observe. There is no truth. There is no ultimate state that will unify everyone. And what is morality? Morality is based off of truth, off of commonality between minds. Morality needs reality. It needs common reality to justify itself. I say disregard it. Disregard reality, and so disregard morality. BUT. The one thing that cannot be disputed is emotion of one’s own self. Because you are feeling said emotion means that you are feeling that emotion. Emotions are based off of themselves, not off of reality. So emotions are just about the only  important thing.