#self-assignment

I have the tendency to drink more than I should and I guess that I can't really always handle it. I do bad things and I say even worse things to people that I care about. I guess I have no control. Okay, I know that I don't have any control whatsoever. But why should I? I'm Mindy fucking Fisher. 

Miss Dahlia Winslet, I believe that I owe you the biggest apology of all. To be honest, without even knowing it, I started using you. A lot. But I needed someone and I really just wanted to die. I'm probably not dead because of you. Damn you and thank you all at the same time. Apparently that's not appropriate to write. I just needed someone to hold my hand and you were always there, hopefully what's happened won't ruin any of what we had before. You're still my best friend and I really need you. I'm also sorry for the things that I said that night, and for being crazy.. In my defense, the Hulk did say that he'd snap my neck, so I wasn't completely wrong, so.

You should tell Dorian sorry for me too. But you won't because this letter never leaves the building. I think we burn them in some ceremony thing or something, I don't know. I should have chosen a more posh place. It's so hippie-ish here. Also not an appropriate thing to write. Back to what I was saying. All I've ever done is fight with him. And fuck him. A lot. Of both. But that's really beside the point. He just tried to help and I always shoved him away because.. well, I just want to do what I want to do. I don't understand what is so wrong about that.

I get that I went overboard and that I did bad things. But people always so bad things. And I am a bad person, like.. what do you expect?

But I'm doing this for you guys. Even though this is supposed to be for all the people that I've wronged, I only really care about you too the most. The rest are on a level that doesn't even get mentioned in this fake letter. You know, unless they make me do it over to mention said people.