#seeing something

I got my ADHD diagnosis and new glasses this year, so I had a thought. I'm a trans man with glasses and ADHD. Curious how many of us are either neurodivergent or wear glasses.

When I say we are living math, it is programmed into us, these calculations are constantly recalibrating and set and in motion and we move with it without or knowledge. Examining the depth of the body's own wisdom and what gets in the way. Investigating into the foreign agent and so far I come to thought, idk whether to define it as an entity or variable.

Thought seems to be the base root that removes one from the dimension that is in complete order. I looked up the word cosmos and it means order and I'm falling over inside because what does it all mean!? Cosmos is in order and now I must look at disorder in an entirely new way! Holistic implies whole, therefore, disorder as a whole has to function in a particular way.

Researching into it and I came across the word fractal and fragment. Fractal at its root means broken and fragment means to break apart. I feel this is a significant observation for these studies. the parallels to mental health, the mind, the brain, and what's relative to what this is is giving me so much to delve into and explore.

Side note: if thought is an invention, the nature of it is to invent, and if time is an invention of thought, thought and time are in the same area. 🤔 With this in mind, the idea or sense of self is also a thought, and invariably what is created as self is self-created. 💭 And to consider this, then one must look at the fact that thought is matter, meaning thought is a material process; thinking. The physical and manifest is a material world. 🗨️ The material world is matter, a matter of thought, the structures, ideals, rituals, traditions, religions, spirituality, practices, methods, techniques, the mechanics of thought that operate by way of mechanisms. 💬 Does this make the brain mechanical? Or is the degree to which mental activity is involved in these things that makes it so? 🕳️

I think biomechanical may be a word to jot down. 📝

All these fields of knowledge. What we know. It supports what fractals and fragmentation are, as these branches separate and remain rooted to the same source.

Mathematically, it shows itself to be true, division, multiplication, subtracting, these processes that go on, what do they do to the state of the mind?

The pursuit of these things is a material process, as energy is matter and what materializes is born out of that energy. Being materialistic is our human nature, it is engrained in the psyche. We log progress as evolution, a time-based theory that applied at length, and with this thought process, our brains have developed into what it is now, the psychological. Psycho(psyche) log(record~memory) I(entity) cal(calculating). The psychological. Hmmm. Something to go into.

I've gone so far as to create notation for identity. Id entity.

Inside diameter is an abbreviation that can prove useful in this work. It returns to length, which I can utilize with wavelength and also the geometry of it, back to math.

Looking up the meanings is doing something for me. The unconscious, ego, the context is coming together! Even down to the definition that speaks to equation and symbols, something that exists by itself, the fodder! Omg. Having a field day rn!

Side note: same and same /// conceptual reality_ the condition of being the same. Part of the psyche.

"part", partial, parting. 📝

Verb - to identify 📋⚔️🔎

What is the meaning of this and what is taking place as a result of these things.