#secreteater

I've had a breakdown of sorts recently. IUI isn't working, and I'm pining to have a child. Stress from work hasn't helped and all this culminated in nearly losing my relationship. It didn't, but we have worked things around and we're working on it. Times aren't always easy, but I have a great network (one that I hadn't expected to be honest) and times like this prove why we're 13 years relationship strong.

I've successfully tracked my meals for one day. I've successfully tracked meals and eaten well and gone to the gym all in one day. I only had 3x cans of coke zero today (don't hate, let's deal with one addiction at a time - I'm being honest here, accountable and all that) I have time for housework. I feel organised. I feel motivated. I feel like i did the time I lost 30kg. I'm losing my shit waiting for my iherb and myprotein packages to arrive. Not supplements, but things like flavoured ricecakes (nice ones, not like you get in Australia) I binge watch #obesetobeast everyday. John Glaude is literally my inspiration and motivation. Got my first goal - new tattoo in T minus 10kg.

I feel like it could happen. We'll see tomorrow.