#secondofcommand

((Written by perditus-vitae and sicarius-de-gratia, the quotation marks are Saix's parts, the Italics are Marluxia))

"I'm so sorry... I never meant it to end this way. I know you'll hate me, love. For the rest of my days.."

Lies are all I can speak, my heart heavy with what I cannot tell you. Please stop asking me... I wish it were as easy as that.

"So don't speak, don't flatter me with lies. The silence will be the end of us, and you force me to cut our ties.."

I will speak one truth at this time. I care for you. Don't forget that.... Please.

"Do you think me naive? These lies- Don't try to make me believe. I know you just want my pity."

I don't want your pity... I just do not wish to see you hurting more than you are by this... No matter how badly you harm me... I care about you. Or would you rather a lie and want me to say I never cared?

"Don't lie to me. I've been lied, used, and abused- Love was never something meant for me. This puppet has never been free. Forever following his Master. Just tell me the truth so this can go faster.."

I am speaking the truth. You choose not to believe, blindly following a man who will lead you astray...

"Do not pretend to know my strife nor my past. No one mourns the wicked, and I am wicked through and through. My heart has been tainted so.. I can never love you."

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"Watching as my hands tear you apart, How can you even want to be near a monster like me? I'll only destroy you.."

Because I know you are more than a monster... And even if I'm destroyed... I'd have you.

"The blood on my hands will never wash away. I'm scared to even be near you for fear that I'll wake again and see what damage I've done again..."

I trust you though. You will not fall to violence so easily... You had merely been ordered to do as you did. Do not feel bad for me. It is not your fault.

"Violence is all I know. I just don't understand how you can't see. Stop these plans and please just go.. you won't be able to set me free.."

He’s more than willing to satisfy the other’s possessive urge, that little growl sending a shiver up his spine and he responds well to the attention to his lips. The look in those golden orbs prompts eagerness to shoot through him and he lifts his hands, digging his nails down the other’s back. A smirk teases onto his features and he leans up, suddenly biting at the other’s neck near the collar, a slight reminder that while he was allowing this of Saix right now, he was the one in charge.

Not that he’d been especially strict about that lately anyways… He’d made his point enough, there was little sense in making Saix uncomfortable with forward, increasingly possessive acts when he was content with things as they were anyways. “Mm, yeah,” he purrs “Yer sexy when you act all dominant.” He smirks “Gonna take advantage of the situation~?”

A groan passed pale lips as those nail dug into the sensitive skin of his back. This was soon followed up by a gasp as teeth soon met his neck. A shiver racing through him and the bluenet had to bite his lip to keep any further sound from escaping. Golden orbs became half lidded, staring down at his lover with a hunger in his eyes that could easily be understood but less easily explained.

"Am I ever not?" He could not help a bit of pride in his tone, implied humor at the other’s comment on time. Luxord gave a more formal greeting in the form of a nod, then extended the hand which held his recently completed form towards Saix.

"Filled out, complete, and in detail. Is there anything else you require from me?"

There was a low snort from the Diviner at the prideful response, tempted to roll his eyes but held back from doing so. Taking the report and glancing over his for a moment to insure that it was completed and on the correct mission and format. Saix was such a stickler for these things, it made it easier and he'd typically shove the report back at the other person if they deviated from the chosen format.

At the question, a brow raised and golden orbs flickered upwards to the time shifter opening his mouth to respond. That is until he had to turn his head away and muffle a cough behind his hand. After the small coughing fit had passed, the bluenet shook his head.

Saix had not been feeling all too well that day, finding himself stuck more in his room than he'd rather like. But at hearing the knock on the door, the Diviner sighed and got up. Another mission report being turned in no doubt. It's not that he wasn't Happy that the others were actually turning them in on time..but he just wanted to be left alone. 

Axel had become all too familiar with nightmares, so when Saix woke him in the night with claims of one, he didn’t even question it, shifting and moving the blankets back, reaching up to tug the blue haired man to lay down with him. “Stay with me tonight then,” he says, smiling slightly.

Because truth be told, he’d had a nightmare himself, and he didn’t fancy sleeping alone.

 ”An’… uh… if you wanted t’talk about it… I’d be happy to listen.” 

Once the bluenet was settled in the bed, he sat up a bit, sitting cross legged on the bed with a thoughtful expression on his face almost as if detaching himself from the nightmare he'd had.

"I...." He started but then was unsure. He laid down on his side next to Axel and twisted his lips before taking a deep breath. " I dreamed..that Xehanort forced my Berserker to come out in a rage. He made me stay in that state and I..I became this..wild rutheless killing machine for his every command...I killed everyone for him..ripped apart Caleb, everyone of the Light...y-you..."