#perditusvitae

Marluxia had indeed been away on a mission that the Diviner had sent him on that day. When he finally returned to the Castle, his first stop was his room, wanting a shower after a day of work. The pinkette walked into his room, unsuspecting of the danger within. He had already closed the door behind him when he spotted Xeha. "What are you doing here?" he said simply.

The young woman turned to face him when he entered the room and noticed her shortly after. "Why do you think I am here, Marluxia?" She asked though she didn't really expect an answer. "You lied to me to start with."

Lied to her? Marluxia had to think for a moment before he realized what she had meant. Fuck. Marluxia took a step back, the memory of what happened when he had merely spoken poorly to Saix. "...And?" Marluxia said cautiously, not sure what the other expected him to say.

She watched what she meant dawn on him. He stepped back. More likely than not he was remembering what had happened during their last confrontation. "And you raised your hand against your lover."

Marluxia nodded quietly. He wasn't going to deny what he had done. Now, he only wandered what was going through the other's mind, what she was planning to do. "I have been working to make it up to him."

Xeha telekinetically pushed him back up against the door and held him there. "I hope you aren't thinking that it will be a quick fix because it will not be. Are you aware of the levels of trust you have broken with your actions?" If she was in Saix's place she would never trust Marluxia again, at least not fully.

A huff of air escaped him as his back hit the door. "Of course it will not be a quick fix... You do not think I know this already?" Marluxia knew things would never be the same as the way they were before... But Marluxia could still try to earn what trust he could back. She used her power to hold him against the door, but not painfully, at least not yet. "I don't know what you know because you apparently can't heed a warning."

Marluxia glared at her. "I know enough," Marluxia replied simply.

"Not that you have shown me thus far." She tightened her grip on him. "If you know enough tell me what you think is permissible in a relationship when it comes to altercations."

Marluxia clenched his jaw as he felt the grip tighten on him. "...Talking..." Marluxia didn't say anything more, not sure what the woman was wanting him to say.

"Speaking how?" She asked, keeping her grip on him firm. "And what is not acceptable?"

"Calmly...." Marluxia said, trying his best not to aggravate her. Eyes focused on the floor as he spoke again.  "Hitting... is not acceptable."

"Good." He seemed to be learning, for now anyway. Her gold eyes remained fixed on the Nobody. "Hitting is not acceptable. What other things are not acceptable?"

What else was she wanting him to say? "...Yelling?" Marluxia said, uncertain.

"Yelling, stabbing, maiming, pretty much any sort of negative physical contact." She elaborated. "Confrontations between yourself and your other half are to be handled in a calm and mature manner. Emotional manipulation is also not allowed." The telekinetic grip tightened painfully. "Do I make myself clear? You will treat each other with respect." She nearly hissed.

Marluxia's jaw clenched, biting back the pain-filled cry that was trying to escape. "Yes," he managed to spit out through clenched teeth.

Xeha rose from Marluxia's desk chair and walked over to him. She aimed a punch at his face that would hopefully leave him with a very nice and dark black eye. After that she stopped pinning him to the door, hoping he would fall to the floor so she could kick him in the ribs.

His head snapped backwards, the back of his head colliding with the door. Marluxia fell to the floor as the grip was released. The Assassin feel to the floor, grateful for the relief of pressure on his body. He landed on his hands and knees, small gasps of air escaping him.

She watched as Marluxia fell to the floor. He landed on his hands and knees, which pretty much put him at a perfect height. Xeha gave him one hard swift kick to the ribs before taking a step away. She needed to keep in mind that she couldn't break anything of his.

A cry of pain escaped him as the kick sent him sprawling on his side. Blue eyes- well, eye as the other had already begun to swell- snapped open at the pain. He curled in on himself, hands moving over the spot Xeha had kicked. A whine of pain escaped   him as his hands brushed over the spot; it was still painful even through his cloak.

A small pleased smile curled on her lips at the cry of pain and the way he slumped over sideways. The whine was also a bit amusing. "You are getting off easy this time. I made certain promises regarding your well being that I can't break for now. If this happens again I will not be so merciful. Got it?"

Marluxia looked up at her from where he was curled on the floor. Promises regarding his well being? "I.. Understand.." He panted out. He did not want to see what she would do if something else were to happen. He didn't move from where he lay on the floor, waiting for the pain to subside a bit before moving from his spot.

Marluxia growled. So he was in there. Blue eyes narrowed. "It can't wait till the fucking morning Saix." Marluxia was shaking. How the fuck dare Saix fucking sleep with the man who had claimed the pinkette as a pet. "I will teleport in there myself if you don't open the door." Fists clenched and unclenched, the anger filling the Assassin.

Shit. Shit. It Had to be Marluxia?? The Diviner's whole body tensed and he quickly glanced around  the room, why the Hell was he so pissed?? "M-Marluxia, I really can't talk at this moment. Though your tone isn't much needed. You should calm and come back..Later, when this Won't start a fight." He stated firmly, trying to make it seem like he was being more reasonable to avoid a fight rather than just not seeing the other. Just in case he shifted to get under his sheets, least the Assassin make good on his promise to come in anyways. "I don't Have to do anything, Marluxia, and you should know better than to speak in such a tone. You're obviously angry, and talking on it Now won't be the best option."

Now Saix was scolding him for his tone? Marluxia stayed true to his word and portaled into the room. Marluxia's brows furrowed as he spotted the lump under the sheets. "Now you're hiding from me?" Probably too ashamed of what he fucking did to look him in the eyes.

He tensed as he heard the portal, hearing Marluxia speak to him. He cursed under his breath but stayed under the covers for now. "Marluxia..I'm Tired. I'm not hiding, I'm trying to Sleep...can't this Please wait till morning? When you're calm and I've had proper rest?.."

Marluxia moved towards the bed, fully intent on pulling the sheets from the other if necessary. Or flipping the bed over. Which ever was easier to accomplish. "It can't wait Saix. Get the hell up."

"No." He shifted slightly, hearing the voice closer had him swallowing thickly. But he remained firm. "And seriously, why are you cursing at me? What did I do to piss you off Now, Marluxia?"

"Don't act like you don't know what the hell you did." Marluxia moved to tear the sheets away. Of course Saix would feign ignorance.

"Wha- wait- Stop!" The sheets were yanked from him and Saix froze, breath hitching. Golden eyes were wide as he stared at Marluxia in shock before a few second before quickly turning his head away, hair purposefully covering his face. "I-I Really don't know what you're talking about Marluxia. You're being rude and overly angry and I Don't understand."

Marluxia noticed the fact that the other looked away from him immediately. Saix was lieing to him,before he knew what was happening, Marluxia lashed out, fist aimed at the other male's jaw. "Don't lie to me!"

He didn't sense it, didn't sense the other coming at him. The only hint was the shuffle of clothes and by the time the Diviner heard it, it was too late. Pain exploded across his jaw, a yelp of pain and surprise leaving his lips as the force of the hit caused Saix to fall back- falling off the bed. His heart was racing, cursing as pain laced up his rear and wrist from trying to catch himself, the taste of copper exploding in his mouth. Marluxia...Hit him. The Assassin Actually Hit him! Paling and staring wide eyed at his lover, tense and actual fear flickered through the Diviner in that moment. He had Nothing to defend himself right now, not without his powers, not with the extra boost of being a berserker. "M-Marluxia?..." Fingers coming up and touching the split part of his lip, that's why he'd tasted copper...

Marluxia glared down at him his own pulse pounding in his ears. "I said do not lie to me. You know what the hell you did . You can't even fucking look at me right now. Explain yourself Saix. Why the fuck did you do it?" Am I not enough for you?" Marluxia's nails dug into his palm, drawing blood. He was restraining himself a best he could right now, but there was little he could truly do to calm himself right now.

Wiping the blood from his lip, Saix narrowed his eyes at the other and moved to stand up and glare at his lover. "Marluxia, I don't know what the Fuck you're talking about!! I'm Not lieing, how am I supposed to Explain Anything if I don't KNOW??" He yelled, frustrated, angry that he'd been Hit by his lover and just not understanding Why the other was so Mad at him!!

Marluxia bristled as the other yelled at him. First Saix sleeps with Xemnas and now is yelling at him? how fucking dare he. Marluxia growled as he let loose another punch towards his jaw. "Of course you fucking know. You decided to fucking go to him to fuck him."

He couldn't dodge fast enough, pain exploding across his face once more as he stumbled back. Back pressing against the wall now and his body started trembling. His wrist throbbed, probably sprained, his lower eighth side of his face hurt, the lip split. "Fucking...someone?...Mar- Please listen to me! I-I Don't know who or what you're talking about. The only people I've been involved with was with You and Axel, and you were there! P-Please- calm down, Marluxia!" He hating the begging tone he was getting but he needed to calm the other down, he Couldn't match up to the strength of any nobody right now, and he was stuck vulnerable.

Marluxia stalked forward to pin the other against the wall, a hand moving to the other's throat and squeezing. "Stop lieing to me! You're just like everyone else. I'm not good enough for you. You require that Xemnas to be satisfied. That's why you sought him out yes?" Marluxia snarled. "Or were you looking to reignite an old flame? That's it right? It's not enough that I was able to set aside my feelings of jealousy for Axel. No of course not. You'll just leave me like everyone else. Lie to my face then leave me." The hand around Saix's throat grew tighter as the Assassin spoke. As Marluxia held the other with one hand, his other fist lashed out at the other's ribs, fully intent on causing damage.

Eyes widening, Saix tensed and cried out as his throat was grabbed. A hand grabbed at the others arm, trying to pull the Assassin's arm away. Struggling against the hold, Saix fought for breath now, a whimper passed his lips and he strained against Marluxia, managing to rasp out his name. Pain exploded over his again, causing the Diviner to cough and gasp again for air, whimpering in his struggles. But the horrible part was that he couldn't bring himself to strike out against Marluxia, despite the pain. He was too confused and with how Angry Marluxia was... "M-Mar.....p-please...c-can't...bre-eath..."

Marluxia was breathing heavily, the anger finally starting to ebb away. Blue eyes widened as he realized what he had done, what he had almost done. He was no better than Alder, wasn't he? The grip on the the other's throat was released as he backed away shaking his head. "N-no..." How could he hurt Saix like this? Marluxia collapsed to his knees, head cradled in his hands. "I-I'm sorry... I'm so sorry." Marluxia shook where he had collapsed, tears fighting to be let out.

Falling back against the wall, Saix watched with watery eyes as the other backed away. Tense, trembling, still scared, Saix didn't move from the wall, didn't say anything for a moment as fingers brushed over what would surely be bruising skin. Finally, after a few long moments, he spoke. "Xemnas...and I..Had sex..but it was sudden and unexpected..and it was Before we...officially got together..." He swallowed thickly and turned his gaze away. "If-If you're going to not even..A-Ask me.. Not even take a moment into consideration my current...Weakest state...then get out. I-I don't want you n-near me right now..w-when I can't-can't even defend myself...."

Weakest state? What was he talking about? Marluxia shook his head before looking toward Saix. Marluxia stood taking shaky breaths as he walked forward toward Saix, towering over him for a moment before moving to sit next to Saix. Arms snaked there way around the other pulling him close, cuddling against him. "Sorry, I'm sorry..." Marluxia kept mumbling apologies to the other as he held him. This was his normal behavior after an outburst, often cuddling Namine in much the same manner. The only difference now was the mumbled apologies.

His breath caught, had he pissed off the Assassin once more? Paling, the diviner scooted back, eyes wide and fear flickered through him. Flinching when Marluxia was suddenly sitting next to him, another flinch as he was touched, barely holding back a whimper. But he opened his eyes and forced his breath to calm slowly as it seemed that all Marluxia was going to do was hug him and apologize. Licking his split lip again, feeling the bruising before turning his eye's away, letting the other do as he pleased.

Marluxia didn't notice the flinch when he touched the other, having grown used to it from Namine. Marluxia nuzzled against the top of the other's head, placing gentle kisses between his apologies. Marluxia's eyes were clamped shut as he held the other, ashamed of himself. How could he do that to Saix?

Wiping he tears from his eyes, Saix took a shaky breath. It hurt to breath..dammit. "A-Are you done?...I have injuries to be checked..and I don't want to be on the floor...if-if that's ok with you..?" He murmured figuring he needed to be Very careful right now, hell Marluxia might snap again just because he didn't want to sit here and be cuddled by the other right now..

Marluxia remained still for a moment after the other spoke. The words took a moment to really process, but blue eyes cracked open when he figured out what the other said. "Don't want to be on the floor," Marluxia echoed. Marluxia maneuvered to pick the other up and carry him to the bed. After moving Saix to the bed, Marluxia lay near him, an arm wrapped around him as he continued his mumbled apologies and nuzzles. Marluxia would do this until he fell asleep, a combination of both emotional and physical tiredness having taken their toll.

As hard as he tried...Saix could not simply forgive Marluxua. Not right now, not after this. He was hurt too much. But he didn't want to anger the male, he didn't want to cause anymore problems. This..this had been a nightmare come true.. Saix didn't think he could deal with this..not again.. It was too much. But for now, he let the pinkette do what he wanted to feel better about himself. Saix didn't sleep. Not at all. Even through the pain as the moon have him his power back. He just bit his lip and endured it.

Marluxia had a troubled sleep, grumbling and tightening his arm around the other multiple times through out the night. His dreams were troubled with images of what happened... What could have happened if he hadn't stopped. Occasionally a whispered I love you followed by apologies would leave his lips while he slept. When he finally awoke his dreams had faded away. He nuzzled against the other's neck tiredly, the exchange of last night having been forgotten momentarily. "Good morning, mon amour. I had the oddest dre-" Blue eyes had opened spotting the bruising on the other's neck. Fuck. Fuck fuck. It hadn't been a dream it had actually happened. Marluxia sat up in bed, scooching away from Saix. Blue eyes were staring at him, his guilt apparent in them.

Saix was tired. It really had to be the longest night he'd had for a while. He was almost happy that the other woke up- Did Marluxia not remember? But then when the other moved away from him, the Diviner knew that Marluxia remembered. He swallowed thickly and cringed, damn he was sore.. Moving to sit up, Saix glanced over at the other, his face looked tired but that was the only emotion that showed in the moment. He didn't speak, he couldn't. Moving to get up, breath hitching but he ignored the pain and walked to the bathroom.