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It that day again, valentines. Always had mixed feelings about this day but it just proves how you need the right person to make it not matter, friend or boyfriend.

6 Years ago today, I had my first kiss.

Crazy.

I had my first kiss, with my current boyfriend but we have only been together (almost) four months. haha.

So, my first boyfriend, first love and first kiss was with this man. We separated shortly after due to long distance and I was lucky enough to get a second chance - now that's crazy. We went through so much when we were apart but didn't realise it until we were together again. Every now and then we'd take through facebook and reminisce / catch up. And it would always be a little sad, I knew I missed him, I missed him like mad. Since him I'd never made any memories half as good. I always fooled myself by telling myself I was over him, and I genuinely thought I was, I'd moved on and so had he, but when we spoke there was always that little something that was there that I was blind to. I blamed missing him so much on the fact he was my first love, and you never forget your first love.. right? No, you never forget your true love. 

So six years ago today, we awkwardly sat next to each other on the sofa whilst my family had a day out in London. We tried to make it easier by watching some comedy, Lee Evans. It was those awkward stares into each others eyes "is he going to kiss me now? what do I do? do I move in? how long have we been staring at each other? should I look away? would he think I'm not interested then? oh god oh god" - the thoughts of a 15 year old girl. We went on to watch 'A Cinderella Story' which obviously bored him enough into kissing me, but it worked and it was incredible. It was so insane how perfect that day was. Oh, and because it was valentines, he brought me a card, and a rose, and a chocolate duck/mini chocolate Easter eggs. Anyway..

Today:

I left London soon before 6am to drive down to Southampton Hampshire, to meet him after work and walking the dog, I got here an hour and a half later. We had peanut butter on toast and continued upstairs to his room. I walked in and after a couple of steps I paused in shock. I really didn't think he'd do anything. But there, laying on the bed, is a giant teddy (Tubby), an equally giant card, a double photo frame with 'LOVE' on the top of it, six gold lindt chocolate bears, and two artificial roses. Wow. How adorable. He knows how to spoil a woman (..when he wants to and can 'sort of' afford it haha). I was instructed to read the card first, which went on the tell me that the quantity of gold bears and roses had another meaning, six gold bears for six years since and two roses for second valentines together - a man who thinks!! I feel so lucky and spoilt and overwhelmed too. And if that wasn't enough! Whilst still soaking in all my amazing gifts, he declares "I got you a little something else as well" more!? MORE?! what did I do to deserve this!? (a selection of crappy valentines over the last five years maybe, but still!). He brings up a little gift bag from down the side of the bed and tells me to be careful when getting 'it' out. To which my careful wasn't careful enough and he had to rebuild the gift before handing it to me in the tissue paper from the gift bag. It's a cube with photos of us and our memories in each face of the cube. I'm done. He's won me more than he had already!

I feel like the (absolutely scrumptious! if I do say so myself) Ferrero Rocher / Nutella cupcakes I made him were'nt nearly enough. [I got him a card and wrote a small letter as well]. But I think the cyberman lego set I got him for his birthday the week before and allowed him to build for an hour and a half at 430 on sunday morning made up for that enough!

We spent the rest of the day trying to get some sleep (how we do best/ how he does best) before eventually getting up, and getting up before he had to get ready for another night shift at work (:(). We carted ourselves of abruptly to Burger King (dead romantic huh? [still perfect]) with me driving his car for the first time to get us there and he drove home. Scoffed a Bacon Double Cheese XL Burger each and dashed back to his, where I followed him in my car to his work, where I've left my car for him to drive back tonight after my new headlight hopefully gets fitted, I drove his car home and here I am now.

Thank you my love for creating another special day for us. I love you, I adore you xxx