#sec rambles

Worth feeling like I got hit by a bus regardless.  I can’t pass up a good sparring encounter.  They’re so exillerating.  

For @galeforcesquacl

I keep forgetting that people don't drag their energy* from their emotions and memories and physical body and motions. So when they do things from purely a psychological-placeboy place that they dont mean to be off putting to me when they talk about what powers secular witchcraft if secular witches dont use the power of gods.** I think its good to mention that placebo affects can happen and its not a bad thing. I also think the conversation about what is actually going on when we do spells. I just... i dont have a psychological technique, thinking particular thoughts... base. So my placebos effect that i watch for is after the fact, ie self confirmation bias. Perhaps i should focus on whether or not the feels (metaphorically and literal) are actually just thoughts instead of core feelings. But every time i go into that thought. I just pull up a hand and the motion of that alone calls for me what i use in my spellwork. But not always when i move my hands does that happen. Its different than listening to a song (points at title) just for funsies and listening to the same song for energy manipulation. The question of whether this is the divine will*** that i am using always comes up for me. But its so core to myself that I dont think this is the case. A divine will would feel different to me (and a spirit will does feel different to me so thats why i an saying that. Not that ive horsed a god before). *energy: here is being used as a catch all. But to be honest with everyone, i cant exactly say we are talking about the same thing. For me, this "energy" is a physical (meaning causes reactions on my skin specifically) force. And that doesnt seem to be the case with other people. They dont appear to have a physical reaction; let alone do the same things in order to raise this energy (ie they think of it and so it comes. For me, i feel it and so it comes. Physical. Its aways a feeling within my body). **there is a question i have when it comes to gods and their energy or power. Where does it come from? Is it an internal thing that they draw out? Is it something else? What is this power and where from them does it come? ***the Divine Will is gods will that lives in you. (Summed up)