I hate this so much. So much. And I hope like hell we get to meet your baby sooner than later. Sorry, Roo.
residentbunburyist replied to your post “[[MOR]i really desperately want a baby i thought i was fine waiting...”
I'm sorry! Things should even out eventually, shouldn't they? once there stops being all sorts of nasty surprises and stuff? and if you think you won't physically be able to, how viable is something like adoption?
sdqsdq replied to your post “[[MOR]i really desperately want a baby i thought i was fine waiting...”
I'm so sorry that you are feeling horrible about this, and I hope you are able to come to some conclusion that makes you happy and fulfilled. I'm sorry.
katerhodia replied to your post “[[MOR]i really desperately want a baby i thought i was fine waiting...”
Hugs if you want! I hope things work out one way or the other.
demonicsymphony replied to your post “[[MOR]i really desperately want a baby i thought i was fine waiting...”
Hugs or whatever support you want, even if it's for me to fuck off!
thank you guys so much for listening, it's just something that sort of caught me in a nasty moment even though i'm normally okay with it
i know that i just really need to be patient right now, it isn't the right time, logistically, my husband works and travels a lot and we have two very high-needs dogs and we live far away from family so even before i got sick i wasn't really in a position to handle a newborn all by myself most of the time, and now i'm certainly not
and i know that having kids biologically isn't out of the question yet, it's just going to be more complicated and risky, but i need to stop worrying about that bridge before we come to it
and yes, adoption is something i was considering even before my health went to shit! but that would require having our finances and lives even more in order, enough to actually impress an adult and not just a baby. like i probably shouldn't have porn sitting openly on the coffee table. that might take a couple more years.