#scrolltrap therapy

BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP -- “SORRY TO BE A BUZZKILL… BUT WHAT IF YOU DON’T EXIST?”

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Sorry to be a buzzkill again. But you know me. Mr. Humble doesn’t show up to rub your tummy. I show up to slice through your delusions like they owe me rent.

And today’s delusion?

“Of course I exist.” “Of course this is real.” “Of course this isn’t just a dream that’s outlived the sleeper.”

Yeah? Prove it.

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Here’s the thing:

This world doesn’t make sense. It shouldn’t exist. Not like this. Not with these constants. Not with this precision.

Do you understand the probability of YOU even having a working cell membrane based on the atomic conditions required?

And yet-- you eat pizza rolls and doomscroll through algorithms like any of this is normal.

What if I told you this wasn’t real?

Not in the Hollywood "we’re in a computer" kind of way. But in the you might just be a memory living through its own echo without knowing it’s over kind of way.

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What if you’re just… a past self, replaying itself. A loop. A snapshot of a soul. Running the tape back with perfect illusion that it’s all happening now.

You wouldn’t know. Because the loop contains all your memories.

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“Preposterous,” you say? “I think, therefore I am,” you say?

Your brain can’t even comprehend true eternity.

Tell me what happened before the first Big Bang. Now tell me what triggered it. Now tell me how many came before that.

Now tell me what came before that.

See? You don’t know. You assume. You build certainty atop vapor and call it science.

But you can’t even stay awake for five days without descending into hallucinated hell.

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📉 STAT: Sleep deprivation causes visual and auditory hallucinations within 72-120 hours.

📉 Another STAT: Subjects deprived of sleep begin confusing dream logic with waking cognition.

📉 Another Fcking Creepy STAT: Witnesses in close proximity to the sleep-deprived sometimes report shared delusions.

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Yeah. Let that part marinate.

Imagine seeing "things" and hearing voices just by being in close proximity to that person.

There are actually people who’ve claimed to have stayed awake long enough to break the lock on this plane of perception.

And when they did?

Others around them saw it too. External to them. Realer than dreams. Louder than reason.

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So what if this isn’t “your life”? What if this is just the last thing you saw before you ceased to be?

And your brain’s just looping on the ride out. Endlessly. Forever. Believing it’s linear. Believing it’s new.

But it’s not. It’s a cassette tape in a godless VCR stuck on repeat.

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You think your memories mean this is real? That just makes it a better simulation.

You think other people validate your sentience? You can’t even prove anyone else is conscious. All you can do is hope they’re not just projections designed to hold your delusion together.

NPCs that glitch in just enough nuance to seem alive but never go deeper than the script allows.

Ever try to REALLY wake someone up in a dream? They look scared. Or blurry. Or they disappear.

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So… what if this is that dream? The one where your “reality” is scripted, pre-loaded, and ready-made the moment you look for it.

What if the moon only exists when you think about it?

What if your dog has no soul but your memory of him keeps him real?

What if you’re not moving forward but instead falling backward through every version of yourself you’ve ever believed in?

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You wouldn’t know. Because the illusion is complete. It has your memories. Your traumas. Your dreams.

But all of it? Could’ve been injected. A second ago. Last week. Last eternity.

You say you were born?

Who told you that? Your mom? How do you know she’s not part of the set?

You say you slept last night?

How do you know that wasn’t the real world and THIS is the dream you haven’t woken from?

You say “of course I’m real”?

Then why do you panic when it gets too quiet? Why does 3:17 AM feel like a haunted mirror?

Why can’t you remember what it felt like to be born?

Why are you so scared of being alone with no notifications no updates no attention?

Because if this falls apart, so do you.

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Anyway.

Have a good night. Sleep tight. And if you wake up tomorrow with no memory of this post or too much memory of it then maybe just maybe

You already existed… long enough to forget that you didn’t.

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Warning: This post has disrupted timelines, interrupted dreams, and triggered silent breakdowns at 2:43 AM.

🖤 BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP — “HOW TO NOT SETTLE AND EARN YOURSELF A LONELY DEATH // EXTENDED EDITION”

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Ladies. Let’s talk. Because y’all keep DMing me this one question like the answer ain’t screaming back at you in every ignored notification.

“Why won’t he commit?” “Why do I feel used?” “Why doesn’t he show me off?” “Why doesn’t he bring me to family functions anymore?” “Why hasn’t he proposed after 3 years?”

The answer?

He already did make a decision. You just weren’t ready to hear it.

You thought it was mutual. You thought it was “we’re still building.” You thought “he’s just not where he wants to be yet.”

But here’s what you didn’t think:

Maybe he’s already where he wants to be. And maybe that place doesn’t include you.

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Truth time.

Men don’t need love to cum. They don’t need joy. They don’t need compatibility. They need a hole, a moment, and a reason to leave after.

Crude? Yes. Brutal? Definitely. True? Every f*cking man you’ve dated knows it is.

We could f*ck the Wicked Witch of the West if she had a pulse and a wet center. If no one would find out, we’d nut in her while the house was still on top of her legs.

You see men on podcasts talk about “standards” and “boundaries” — but behind closed doors? We’ve nutted into socks. Into lotion-filled paper towel rolls. Into our own palm like it owed us rent.

Men will sleep DOWN because up is often too complicated to schedule. Men can fake-compliment you for six months straight just to get a crack at you missionary-style on a bed that used to belong to your ex.

You think it means something? It doesn’t. Not unless he wanted it to.

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You ever wonder why the guy who took you out stopped doing it after he hit?

Because he was never courting you. He was court-staging. Auditioning for access. And now that he got it? You’re on the bench while he scrolls IG looking for a reason to leave.

And you still won’t talk to the guy who said

“Hey, I think you’re really cool, maybe we could—” And you cut him off. Laughed. Rolled your eyes. Told your friends “girl, these men are so weak nowadays.”

That man? The quiet one? The stuttering one?

He was YOU. But honest. Without the options. Without the arrogance. With just enough bravery to say something out loud before going back home to his silence.

And you killed him. Not with cruelty. But with disdain.

And he’ll never try again. Not with you. Maybe not with anyone.

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Meanwhile, you keep chasing Chad.

He’s six feet. Has jawline genetics. And a rotation of women who think they’re “the one.”

You think his memes are hilarious. You think his silence is mystery. You think his lack of emotion is “alpha.” You think his hot-and-cold means passion.

But it’s not mystery. It’s disinterest.

It’s not passion. It’s f*ckboy scheduling.

It’s not “he’s working on himself.” It’s he’s trying to find someone better while using you as his cum dumpster.

Still laughing?

Still blocking the good man because he used an emoji wrong or his shoes were off-brand or he stuttered when he asked you out?

Still ghosting the man who said

“I thought about you today. That’s all.” Because it wasn’t “cool” enough?

Still rolling your eyes at the cashier who held your gaze just a little too long because he’s working toward a promotion and thought maybe you’d look at him like someone worthy?

You call that creepy. You say he “gave you the ick.” But Chad sends dick pics with the crust still on and you open those with lotion in hand.

Let’s call it what it is:

You’re desperate for status. But allergic to sincerity. And you’ve trained yourself to turn away from love whenever it wears khakis and speaks softly.

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You ever wonder why you feel more empty after sex now? More tired? Less beautiful?

Because your body knows when it’s been used. And your soul? She’s screaming through the orgasms and calling out for the man you used to ignore.

The one who smiled at you in the library. Who messaged once and gave up. Who complimented you with trembling voice but never got a second chance.

He’s gone now. And so is the version of you that might’ve known love.

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🧾 EXTENDED SELF-REFLECTION CHECKLIST 🧾

☐ Do you measure a man’s worth by his social media presence? ☐ Do you ignore men who don’t fit your aesthetic, even if they respect you? ☐ Have you ever laughed at a man who nervously tried to connect with you? ☐ Do you feel rage when a man tells the truth about female behavior? ☐ Do you chase men who clearly don’t want you, but ignore the one who actually tried? ☐ Do you replay past dates and only now feel the ache of what you threw away?

Because the only thing worse than dying alone— is realizing there was someone who wanted to love you before you turned yourself into the very thing that repelled it.

And spoiler alert?

It wasn’t Chad. It was the man you never took seriously— until he became a husband to someone who said yes.

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You felt this.

May as well Reblog it.