#saveyourownass

This year I began my journey as a 5th grade Math and science teacher chosen and placed by TFA. In my first year though I guess I never realized until the end that I was in no position to carry on the fight of TFA in my first year of education. My only job was to survive and not teach too badly and get certified. This in hindsight has translated into never give pushback say yes and keep it moving. I was new no one knew me no one had reason to respect me but I came in thinking I was young talented and had all these great ideas newly acquired from TFA institute. I tried my best to work with the craziness that was my school that I worked at. This school has so many issues that it would take  a 600 page book to write it all down. Whenever I saw something crazy though I was vocal. That was my first mistake. Second I never actually created a relationship with my principal. Mostly because I assumed based on observations that this woman's decisions were condescending and honestly not smart.  This was my second mistake I wrote off the main person that ultimately had all of the control as far as my fate in the school . The third mistake I made I assumed that I actually had some leverage or power. I had nothing I was not yet certified, I had no option to get out of the school either through the district or through TFA so I was stuck. My sole job was to shut up , say yes ( or nod yes) and move on. PUSHBACK should have never been a term or action that I had used or even acted on. I should of just let it go let it all go and and try to bring me peace by going outside of the structures in my class. Lesson learned the next job or career field just lay low till eventually my time may come. To all the recent graduates going into the job field be weary stay inspired but keep focused no one cares until your the big man at the top so play the game and find peace in outside hobbies and friends.