#sarantduu

Qalli Clan - Indelible Destination

Character’s Thoughts: “I will do everything to see Sarantduu as it was. It is of my heart, with those I remember and who are there now.”

The largest force driving Kharma after her mother: her childhood clan. Due to the horrible experiences she had after being taken from the Qalli Tribe, Kharma has remembered only the best of tribe life: the support, comfort, and unconditional love from those around her. She remembers her mothers song and her ability to make everything right with her song. Being with Sarantduu as a child was her perfect life. Kharma was active, friendly, bold, and loving to everyone. They often joked that she would never settle for one for her love was for all, in the most platonic of ways. The tribe encouraged her as a Daichin, much like her parents. She fought as much as she loved fiercely.  Kharma often reflects back to the memories of old. The feelings of home were treasured. She spent nearly 15 years away from her birth clan. Each one of those days was spent with a drive to return. Nothing compared to her memories of the perfect home. When she was able to locate Sarantduu again, nearly everything had changed in them and in herself. Kharma struggled with the wrath of Dothral and mentality of Kha. There was one sole survivor of the Sarantduu clan, now acting as Khatun to those. Armed with knowledge and wisdom her parents taught her from prior generations, Kulain continues to do what she feels is best for the clan to preserve their ways. 

In many ways Kharma felt out of place at first, but was determined to learn the ways of this new Sarantduu. When the choice came to stay in Eorzea with one who embodied the spirit of her birth clan or to return to the Steppes with those of Sarantduu, it was extremely difficult. In the end, Kharma chose to go with the Xaela group. Her time with Sarandtuu has thus far been most productive thanks to  the breaking of her heart and her return to the Steppes. Daily, she reflects on the values she felt from those who remind her of her birth clan. For now, Kharma is more Kha than Qalli. A fact she has not and likely will not admit. Her stance on how a tribe should be is also of childish nature. She seeks perfection where everyone is loved for who they are and where what everyone loves is respected. Kharma’s struggles with the New Sarantduu made of wanderers, those wishing to support the Qalli clan and encourage those who want to become Qalli. Many of the new people have had negative experiences with different clans and tribes, which vary wildly from what Kharma experienced. There is much that they each must learn including Kharma. Finding the comfort she did as a child has been difficult. Then again, it took her years to find similar comfort with even one person. In the end, Sarantduu is the clan of her mother. Even if the people are different, Kharma will never replace them in her heart. In search of her Heartsong,  Kharma has traveled away from the tribe in attempt to ease her own heart. After years of neglecting her heart in all but finding her birth clan, she hopes to share what she feels in her heart to those she neglected. As she is out away from her tribe, Sarantduu is still in her heart. She cares for those new ones now. With each waking day, she finds will to return the Clan to how she remembered it. 

OG: <Very early birds. Fine. I am up.> KQ: <♪It makes little sense to waste the light given to us.♪> KK: <Stay up. I am many bells from you. Train as I train. You will not slack while I'm away.> OG: <Early birds! I do much in the light of a candle, but very well I shall strain my eyes to stay roused in the warm light.> KQ: <♪Or simply set aside your stubbornness.♪> OG: <But it is what makes me so delightful.> KQ: <♪We have widely differing opinions of this.♪> KK: <Raise while it is dark. Stay watch when the Dawnfather rises. Both are still in the sky at times. It is nice.> KQ: <♪Your derision does little to endear me.♪> SQ: <♪And does much to raise my ire.♪> OG: <Verbal parables aside... khatun do not take my words as ridicule. I mean so in light jest of my nocturnal habits.> KQ: <♪Mmm.♪ We shall see.♪> KK: <...Oyunn tries. It takes time to adjust. Some more than others. Others, much more than those. All will be well when he is well. He has yet to reach his potential. Oyunn. You will not get there sleeping in late and not training when you are awake. Are you training yet?> OG: <I am unsure whether I am graced by Kharma coming to my aide or not... I will try, try is what you will get. I do not oft sleep at night and find rest in the early hours of the day. Rarely even that.> KQ: <♪Then you should seek aid for this ailment of our healers.♪> OG: <Is this something healers can do? I truly little experience with them.> KK: <Them? There are healers now?> KQ: <♪Mmmm.♪ Herbs for sleeping within a few ticks of taking them.♪ Other herbs for instant sleep.♪ And song of counseling should it be your mind that keeps you from rest.♪ Mmm.♪ Of a sort, Kharma.♪ Temulun and Agasiletai trains.♪ Their daughter should be strong from her lineage.♪ But it is still a couple years before I search for Nhaama's kiss upon her.♪> OG: <Hmmm... then I shall. This has been with me from youth. For that I do not expect a quick resolution.> KQ: <♪You claim much comes from your youth.♪ Yet of it, I have heard more that is merely poor treatment by the Goro than true habits.♪> OG: <I cannot say if it was if Goro neglect, or neglect of whom had me prior. Perhaps it is another result of their lacking, this I cannot say, nor do I think I should say over linkshell. It seems an inappropriate subject for a journey.> KQ: <♪Mmmm.♪ Very well.♪> KK: <If you say. If you see it as your curse, make the most of it. Exert yourself at night. Train to be more of yourself. More of your skill. Khatun can show you many ways, but no one can tell you the best way to be yourself.> OG: <I have a generally high opinion of myself, thank you. But in terms of strengths and weaknesses this is certainly the former if it prevents me a restful night.> KK: A weakness... <Weakness can always be conquered.> OG: <....you make it sound so noble.> KK: <I make it sound how it is. People are weak because they hide from weakness, not because they have it.... At least, that is how I see it.> OG: <...I eat enough sweets, thank you. But yes I understand you, despite my begrudging to admit that it is --- that. I prefer to view it as an obstacle.> KK: <What has this to do with eating? And yes, an obstacle. Obstacle's ware what make you stronger.> OG: <Everything, I'm sure. We shall see. I've already begun my tasks for the day, so such obstacle will have to wait until I can seek a healer's counsel.> KK: <So be it.>

Still stunned by the flame, Kharma’s voice was quiet. "<This is not the Sarantduu in my heart. Why are you like this, Khatun? .... Why?>"