A year ago (in July) I completed my second full-length fic. The moment I published the final chapter on AO3, I told myself I would never write fanfic again. 
I was tired of writing. I was tired of tying my self-worth to my writing. And I was tired of hating everything I had written. It reached a point I almost deleted all my fics and my AO3 account. I was done with it.
Months passed. Ideas percolated in the back of my mind. I had an itch to write. But the moment I tried to, I froze. Sometimes I thought about writing and it made me nauseous. After so long of unsuccessful writing moments, I thought I had reached the end. Writing for fun was no longer something I could do. If I had the skills to write before, I no longer had them.
It wasn’t until May of this year that I had an idea. It was so sudden and random that it shocked me. I started to write. I didn’t feel nauseous at the thought of writing.
Today I completed the second draft of that random fic idea. It’s surreal to see the chapter documents on my computer.
I went from thinking I would never write again to completing a full-length fic. And I feel so relieved to have found my old joy in writing again.
All that to say, I hope other writers who have taken a break, who feel defeated, who feel nauseous whenever they look at an empty Word doc will find their old spark and joy again.