#sapliketears

back to say i hope it was worth hurting, seemingly the only person that was on your side and gave you nothing but love and support whenever you needed it. someone that was nothing but ripped open for your persual. but good, do you feel good? cause you really got some harsh digs on the girl who never once thought badly of you, and faces horrors beyond your comprehension on a daily basis lol. I hope this is healing the little version of you that was bullied by mean girls in middle school or whatever. it just hurts me deeply because I loved you and all I wanted was to be close to you and this is so fucking unnecessary and it just further fucks with my already diminishing sense of trust in absolutely everybody i already know, or will meet. I know you'll find a way to paint yourself as the victim. You were really good at that. you met me at a time where I was a vulnerable isolated puddle and you made me believe I had finally met someone that understood me, that had gone through the same things as me and saw the world the same way i did. I THOUGHT you had no reason to lie to my face or use me. I thought you were different, special even. but you're not. the things I've been learning about your online footprint today have been disgusting, disturbing, disappointing, humiliating (for you), and sad. I'm ashamed to have ever been associated with you and to have been so proud to be your "friend"/muse/specimen/experiment/whatever. i don't know exactly what purpose this all serves for you, i can only assume you have some issues and leave it at that. but I hope you know you have significantly impacted my life and other girls' lives negatively. you hurt people. you're the mean girl. it's taken years for someone to feel comfortable even having any social media again, just to find out from me you're still on your bullshit and it's not actually safe. and it will take me years to process the fact that i was lied to and successfully gaslit and manipulated for several years, on top of processing the death of my childhood cat AND my aunt! thank you for being as incessant and selfish as you ever were. I truly hope you are getting what you want out of this. you are completely forgotten at best.