Me when this shot specifically
When Something Turns to Nothing
"Wait" Venear stops short and turns around "have we met before?"
A memory resurfaces having been clawing it's way out of the box Icarixis had shoved it into along with all the others like it this whole time
"I wish we could have been... something"
it recites like it did the last time Venear left them and before Icarixis could shove those thoughts back into the box they came from Ven shakes his head and apologizes to the ethereal entity before them "you just seem like the kinda person I'd wanna know" and gods above this was going to be so much harder than they thought
Ven has basically requested his own execution and Icarus was granting it because this was his choice not theirs
and they're supposed to be the quixis who doesn't interven not like Midas did but gods they can't stand to look at that friendly smile free of judgment and nothing short of genuine but lacking that spark of familiarity behind it
and suddenly everything is all to much and they turn around but once their back is to the portal they can't make themself turn back
they bite the inside of their lip and squeeze their eyes shut for a moment taking a breath because gods damn it they are not going to cry
and just like that Ven is gone again and Icarus let him go again because that's what he wanted again and they didn't have the strength to watch him leave... again
and if a few tears trail down the newest Quixis's face well there's not anyone here to say anything about it so maybe... just maybe they took a little while longer to start their usual rounds that day
