#salmen

Six o'clock in the morning. As always Jespar's confused look, when I'm pretending to be asleep, secretly waiting for him to wake up, quietly mumbling: „Gunther, you horny rascal. What naughty things are you doing down there again?“ „I hate your humour“, he says. „You are not the only one there“, I say. „Someday, i swear, I'll really place a Gunther in this bed for you. Just to see your face. And now shut up. I want to sleep.“ I get myself something to drink. About half an hour later I return and try to wake him up again. „Hello, favorite person.“ „What do you want?“ He sounds a bit harsh. „I can be me with you“, I say. „And that's great! Because otherwise I'd be someone else.“ „Hm. I think it's good that you are you.“ „Really?“ „Yes. You might as well be the king of Arazeal. Then you'd be handsome, charming, rich – my life with you would be perfect. But who wants that, really? Such a perfect life. It's the flaw that makes us interesting. And you are very interesting.“ I blink. „Just something special, you know?“, he continues, turning in bed and pulling the blanket over his head. „You are such a romantic“, I say and trot away. Have to think of the small note I found one morning next to my bed: Always stay the way you are keep on improving It's nice to have someone who believes in you.

1) Put on some trousers in the morning. The most successful people in world history have in common that they rarely appear in bathrobes at business congresses or G20 summits. Sad, but true. Trousers are the foundation of success. 2) Feed your cat. 3)  Start working but focus on the essentials. Do to-do lists, but don't overestimate yourself. Start with realistic goals such as "sitting" and "breathing". 4) Kiss your cat. 5) Strongly denounce everything once a day. Argue that tradition has always been a strange argument. (You can put a rusty nail in a person's forehead and he will say: "Ouch". But if you repeat it every year on the same day, he will say at some point: "Yay, a tradition! The day of the rusty nail is the most beautiful day in the world. I love my life!") 6) Cuddle with your cat. 7) Try as hard as you can not to lose faith in humanity when you see advertisements that say, "Behold, fair women. Our cover girl has a hip, a minimal belly base and something like a pelvis. Please identify yourself with her and buy all our products! She is like you!” 8) Tell your cat she is the most beautiful monster in the history of ever. 9) Don’t forget to eat something. No sugar = no brain. Feed your cat while you’re at it. 10) Grab a blanket and your cat. Wrap yourself up in thousand layers of fabric and ignore the existence of an environment outside your bed. 

Quiero confesarte que me enamoré de ti. Que te elegido para complicarme la vida contigo. Que no eres el amor de mi vida, porque no hemos tenido una vida juntos, pero eres el amor de mi existencia, de momento. Y deseo que algún día te conviertes en amor de mi vida.

Siempre me duermo pensando en ti.