#saexperience

This post isn't for sympathy its simply just to share my thoughts and maybe have people share their experiences too

I was sexually assaulted like 2 years ago and it didn't fully like, process in my mind until this year, I always told my therapist about my disassociation issues and like I've never been abused during childhood or had something like extremely traumatic happen, and so we were like ermmm what the hell is this

and then I finally told her about what happened this year, what happened with him and blah blah and she was like ok now that's why you were experiencing that

But anyways like now I get occasional nightmares, sensory flashbacks and flashbacks and a lot of anxiety (PTSD?)

Like on Facebook he keeps on getting recommended to me and I see the notification and I immediately get flashbacks so that's nice and I don't even use Facebook so like wtf 😭

But I feel so alone a lot of the time and I feel disgusting and horrible and ahhhdusiana