#sad lizard

Small, different and aggressive were the words use most often to describe Suzume when she was a child, but there was one girl, one child in the orphanage that seemed to understand a little of what she was going through. She had pretty pink eyes, long flowing white hair, pale skin and the whitest scales Suzi had ever seen. The two hit it off well, the girl soft spoken and never tried to control Suzi’s temper, merely waited for it to calm. She was Suzi’s best friend, a little albino Xaela child, cast aside when she was born “wrong”. It had been a miracle she’d made it to the orphanage and she was often called Blossom, she had another name but Suzi always called her Bloom and she would call Suzume ‘Mutt’. Suzi doesn’t really remember why she doesn’t mind people calling her mutt nor why she likes it, but that is why, an old friend, long ago, used to call her that. 

When they were about eight, a man and a woman came to the orphanage, two tall Raens. They loved all things unique and so were instantly drawn to the two girls. Suzume knew her friend had health issues, and this family looked well off. They could take care of her, but she was sick at the time. When she was sick, it could get ugly and Suzume was terrified her friend would die everytime, the home just didn’t have enough resources. But this family? 

“Hm.. I don’t know dear, she’s rather sickly... and that other one, she has such beautiful scales and her eyes... she’s precious. I know they said she has a temper but nothing a little love could cure. However, an almost always sick child? Love can’t cure that.” Suzi over heard them discussing them. Any other time, any other child, Suzi would have been excited someone was truly considering her, this could be her only chance at a family. But her friend.

Going to the room where her friend was, Suzi smiled at her and took her hand, “They’re going to adopt you, Bloom! Isn’t that wonderful?!” The white child smiled, and asked weakly, “R-really? But...but I’m so sick...” Suzume shrugged, “Just for now, but they can get good doctors for you! Then you’ll get better.” Bloom smiled, “Oh I’m so happy... but what about you, Mutt?” A small shrug was the reply, “Don’t worry about me, Bloom. I’ll be ok.” She gave her hand a squeeze and turned, pausing to add, “Oh and Bloom? No matter what happens... what you’re told... I love you and know that I would do anything in the world for you. You’re my best friend.” Bloom smiled, “Me too, Mutt. You’re my sister, always.” Suzume smiled softly and nodded, “Sister forever.” And she left the room. 

She knew what she had to do, she had to make herself look worse than a sickly child and she knew how to do it. She sat in her room and waited. Like she knew she would, the matron came with a big smile, the couple with her, “Suzume, this nice couple wishes to take you home with them, to live. Would you like that.” Closing her eyes, she took a deep breath and prayed silently, ‘Take care of my friend... my sister’. With that final thought, she stood and snarled, “NO! I want nothing to do with these... pampered fools! I won’t be raised by someone who wants me as a trophy! Some prize to be had!” The couple blinked, startled but then tried to reassure her, “It’s not like that, darling, truly. It’s---” She was cut off when Suzi lunged forward, grabbing the woman by the horns and jerking her forward, slamming her little forehead into her’s, breaking skin with the diamond patch of scales Suzi possessed. The matron quickly grabbed Suzi as the woman wailed and the man quickly got between her and Suzume, “Matron! I believe we’ve made a mistake!” Suzi snarled, “Get off me! Get away from me! All of you! I hate you! I hate every one of you!! I hope you die!” Her fiery gaze speared the man with the final act, leaving the room silent as the bleeding woman held a cloth to her forehead. 

The Matron was mortified and quickly ushered the couple out of the house. Suzi’s plan worked, her friend was adopted, but Suzi was branded unfit for adoption. Placed on a list kids were rarely put on. She would remain a the  home till she was of age, then she would be sent to train for work in some field. But Bloom wrote to Suzi every day for several months later, till one day, she got a letter. Not from Bloom, but her mother. 

“Suzume,

Kanami will no longer be speaking to you. We do not wish for such a violent person to have any influence on our daughter and do not think we will ever forget the kind of person you showed yourself to be. May the Dawn Father have mercy on you child, for your Dotharl blood runs too deep.” 

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2. Titanium - David Guetta ft. Sia

3. Bulletproof - La Roux

4. Your Touch - Blake Lewis

5. Renegades - Feeder

6. Gasoline - Halsey

7. Paralyzed - Mystery Skulls

8. This Is Gospel (Piano Version) - Panic! At The Disco

9. Elastic Heart - Sia

10. Self-Esteem Fund - Portal Soundtrack, comp. Kelly Bailey

11. I Am Not a Robot - Marina and the Diamonds

12. St. Elsewhere - Gnarls Barkley