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They both loved Lily, tho it's in debate if Severus loved her platonically or romantically. It was never clearly stated.

I think Severus put Lily on a pedestal because of her genuine kindness and love. She was like a dream come true so naturally Severus put her life above anyone else's. He would do anything for her like embarrass himself by threatening to sleep in front of the gryffindor commons till she spoke to him, accepting her requested that he stay away from her forever without hesitation no matter how painful it was, and risking his life for hers (which happened later on in their life) I feel that Severus would welcome her back with open arms if she had lived and decided to reunite with him no questions asked.

Now James is a bit difficult, for me, to say. I feel like he may think that the only fault Lily had was that she was best friends with Severus. I also kinda feel like he didn't see her as like a person and more as like an object. He did whatever he could to ruin her friendship with Severus and he even threatened to harm her and attempted to blackmail him.

When you put someone on a pedestal you practically treat them like some god or an ideal. You would think highly of them and sorta downplay yourself. James always thought he was a better choice for Lily. He practically thought highly of himself because of how much his parents spoiled him. Which I get cause they always wanted a kid but no matter how hard they tried his mother was never able to get pregnant so when he came they were overjoyed.

Honestly is it possible to put yourself on a pedestal cause I think that's what James did. It feels like he practically claimed Lily as his and refused to take no for answer because he was used to getting what he wanted. Severus is practically the exact opposite of James.

THERES A POSTER.

THERES A DATE.

HI IM SCREAMING AND CRYING.

you ask me why i laugh so often around you, would you rather i cry instead? there’s a bending in your light when i’m around you, everything pulls me away from myself, but you pull me closer to my most true form and i haven’t thanked you properly

you are an astronomical existence to me. i have traveled through so many days of worry, but the second i met you i knew where my soul would rest for the ending doesn’t speak when the beginning decides to happen, so i am just an afterthought, a tidal wave of energy that speaks to the parts of me that has always been unheard

you are the atmosphere that guards my prayers, i have been shallow enough to think that i could ever possess someone into loving me. you love me in a way that reminds me to let things go and i can always be mindful of that

“i see you”

you never have to say anything ever again. the second i read those three words, i knew that you had encapsulated my soul into various jars, my lightning in a bottle freely allowed to burst and storm, i am not meant to be contained, if freedom is seen when i look at you, when you look at me i am reminded to be as bright as i can ever be for myself and for others

if i am the safe words that sit inside of your palms, then you are the absolute most daring way for me to love myself. because when i love you, i learn new ways to appreciate myself—

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