#ruya.yaps

every time i open a blank doc, the words just don't feel right anymore. i find myself second guessing every single sentence, wondering if it’s good enough or if it’s going to be the thing that finally makes everyone realize i’ve lost my touch. i feel like i am running on empty and i don't know what to write anymore. part of me thinks that maybe jumping into a new fandom or hitting those big numbers just put this invisible pressure on me to be perfect every single time, and it has honestly sucked the joy out of the process.

guys please stop using AI generated pictures or AI writing for your fics!! it's okay if your graphics aren't aesthetic or your writing isn't up to par!! literally who cares it's Tumblr!!!

although i'm very, very, very grateful for all the support i get, including all the likes, comments, reblogs, i will not be posting/publishing any fics on Tumblr or be active on Tumblr until Tumblr addresses or reverses this reblog update.

I want to be in solidarity with my fellow artists/writers! I understand how important reblogs are to people, as most writers thrive off of interactions! myself personally, i try not to focus on how many notes i get, as that can be very very detrimental to one's mental.

but first off, i am in no way or shape condemning people who choose to write this stuff elsewhere, but you are not going to find it here, so please stop sending me requests for it. this isn't me trying to be a puritan or pull some moral high ground card, so please don't take it that way. it’s just that as a writer, i have very clear boundaries for what i’m comfortable putting my name on. i am not going to write content that is misogynistic, anti-indigenous, or anti-black. that means i need you guys to stop requesting things like concubine tropes, sex work au’s, white savior dynamics, or anything that is ultimately degrading to the characters or their cultures.

i am also adding stuff like taming the savage narratives, and certain kinks to that list. tumblr is unfortunately filled with these exact types of themes, and it feels like people have become so desensitized to them that they don't even realize how harmful they can be when applied to stories about marginalized groups. it feels like every other day i see colonialism but make it romantic tropes that completely strip the agency away from the characters i care about. i’m not saying you aren't allowed to enjoy those things in your own time, but i personally cannot read or write them. it’s been really draining to open my inbox and see so many requests that lean into these tropes, especially when they feel so dehumanizing and frankly, quite racist or sexist in their execution.

i’ve always been a firm believer in the "don’t like, don’t read" mentality, but we also have to acknowledge that fanfic doesn't exist in a vacuum. the stories we tell and the tropes we normalize have a real impact on how we view people in the real world. as someone who cares deeply about character lore and cultural representation, especially within the avatar and atla, i want to make sure i’m creating a space that feels safe and respectful. i am tired of seeing exoticism treated like a personality trait used to fetishize black & indigenous-coded characters. it’s gross and i won't do it.

i’m trying my absolute best to stay kind and keep this blog a fun place to be, but i have to protect my peace and stay true to my own values as a writer. i want to get back to writing the things i love, without feeling like i’m being pressured into writing content that i personally don't enjoy.

plus i just want to say, i don't post this much usually. what i'm posting, i'm not proofreading and writing on my phone. (my sleep schedule is bad and i just finished my last exam wuifoejfej)

and i just want to say i was highly motivated to write for toph cause i saw 0 fics for her. like... that's dada...

I’ve decided to take a small break from the blog to focus on my mental health and work on building up my self-confidence again. writing is such an important outlet for me and i want to make sure i’m in the best headspace to share it with you all!!

when I come back, i’m planning to write a ton for you guys and finally reopen my asks!! i’m also super excited to officially get started on my actor AU series.

I’m very grateful for all the support recently and I’m so so shocked people actually like my silly atla fics!! so so surreal, I’ve been a fan since I was a child!!

but please know that I’m not leaving the avatar fandom, and leaving hate anon messages in my asks makes me really sad. I’m not switching up on fandoms or anything like that, this all started out as a joke

and also thank you for over 40k likes?? i saw the notification earlier and im almost at 2k followers as well?? 😭😭😭