i fucling hate the fact that my best friend is a person of coliur like how thenfuck am i mesnt to me normal around him ugh

ok maybe i just have rose tinted glasses bc mary russell was recommended to me by a very beloved teacher, and i read it in the middle of my "i want to be and/or marry sherlock holmes" phase but like. the age gap doesnt bother me? it weirded me out when i heard abt it but i think laurie r king does a really good job of like, kind of bringing it abt in a way that doesnt seem creepy? like from what i remember, perhaps the timing is a bit abrupt but its mary who i think initiates and holmes is fighting it and honestly their relationship is so far from a typical romance story romance that its not creepy? like first and foremost i would say they are partners and friends and that love just kinda grew stronger until they decided they wanted to kiss about it???? idk maybe im crazy, can anyone who has read the series pls jump in bc i *need* to talk abt this to someone