#runaway weekend

Last month’s playlist was a good one! Listen now. 

Stoned on You - Jaymes Young

I Promise - Radiohead

Heartless - Runaway Weekend

XL - Fly By Midnight

Us & Them - Mona

One of Us (Piano Version) - New Politics

My Thoughts On You - The Band CAMINO

Love Again - Hedley

Youth - Hundredth

Euphoric - The Stolen

Anyway - Youth

Bitter - Palace

Electric Touch - ARIZONA

Weekends - Amy Shark

Can’t Let Go, Juno - Kishi Bashi

The Kids Don’t Wanna Come Home - Declan McKenna

Fall Together - The Temper Trap

Away With The Night (Acoustic) - Prides

The Man - The Killers

I’m currently listening to a song called Deja Vu. Seems fitting since the past year has been exactly that. And now I’m back at square one. Is there a punchline for someone who is so consistently circular that they begin to believe the chaos is a foundation and not a problem? Because I am becoming so used to silent chaos; it has become an unwanted lover of my life. I don’t like being out of control and yet that is all I am. Might I put a face to the chaos? Should I name you? 

Beauty is a scary thing. Beauty transfixes, it pauses, beauty captures your heart and never lets go; beauty is my weakness, beauty is my chaos. But it’s safe to say that beauty knows what it has done, it can see the pain lurking behind the kaleidoscope in my eyes, it knows that if it were to rip my heart open, it could see itself inside. The funny thing is, is that I like it. I like the pain, the challenge, I like the restless nights, the tears, I like the anger and sadness and chaos-- I like when beauty stares at me and tightens it’s hold. I hate it, I love it. I can’t take it, I want more. Leave me alone, but never leave. Forget me, but always remember.