#rtia

pa, i don't know if good mood ka by the time na mabasa mo 'to (if makikita mo man ever) pero can i ask you to do something for me? can you try to look at things differently?

i mean, i know i kept apologizing for having insulted you when i said "ikaw, anong ambag mo?" because i didn't want any more misunderstandings to happen but if you will believe me and allow me to explain my side, those words weren't really intended to insult you

what i wanted to imply was that, was their point valid? regardless kung may ambag sila at anuman sila o sinuman sila, was their point valid? sa show, napapahiya ba talaga 'yung mga taong inaakusahan? ☹ hindi ba sila nabibigyan ng chance to defend themselves?

sabi mo palusot lang ako, puro pag-deny, plastic, at robot ang tingin sa mga tao sa show... pa, i also felt hurt. i feel hurt when you dismiss me as palusot at sinungaling. ☹ i don't know what to do, pa. i really didn't say it to insult you, but i'm a liar in your eyes. ☹

i want to understand you... to see things from your perspective. i want to accept your thoughts and feelings and beliefs. i don't want you to feel hurt especially because i didn't intentionally say those words to hurt you but i don't know what to do. i feel compelled to defend myself which made things worse for us ☹

i hope one day you can try to hear me out ☹ i hope you won't accuse me anymore in the future ☹ i hope you can stop to ask, "what do you mean by that?" i hope you can give me a chance to explain before feeling hurt from your interpretation of what i said ☹

it doesn't mean na hindi ka enough but i don't know what to say to make things better...

you know i really love you ☹ i hope you won't think of me so negatively that you'd think i was insulting you by saying those things