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The song has the same sort of vibe that the song from the Fittes ball has-- the sort of cheery synth vibe-- which makes perfect sense because they're both scenes where it's the two of them together. Plus it's another song by the Cure, which just fits the vibe of the show because they've used songs by them already.

And what's more fitting (/romantic) then a song that says "I'll run away with you" as they're running together?

Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head And dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow "Why are you so far away", she said Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you That I'm in love with you?

It shows that contrast between this divide that's grown between them and the rare moments when it is just them and they work well together. To Lucy, those moments are just like heaven, even though they're bittersweet because they never last.

And like the end of the book, the song ends with the singer alone like Lockwood is after Aickmeres and what follows.

This one's more modern than the other songs on the show and also most of the other songs on my playlist, but I will fight tooth and nail for it to be included because it would be PERFECT. Hear me out.

The song starts after Lucy leaves and Lockwood is sitting by himself. Probably at the kitchen table the day after. George asks him something, but Lockwood brushes him off and George's voice is muted as the guitar comes in. As the vocals come in, we get clips/ flashes of Lockwood and Lucy's cafe scene argument where Lockwood tries to convince Lucy to stay (it's mentioned in book 4). First, they're calm, then it gets more heated, then they're arguing (but the song kind of muffles it) and then a shot as Lockwood follows Lucy out into the street and she walks off without him.

Then it shows Lucy on her own getting settled into her apartment. She closes the door and sets down her rapier. Flashback to her packing/ leaving Portland Row in the early hours of the morning, before anyone can stop her. Then it's back to her in her apartment. The blinds are drawn. She's alone.

Lockwood's by himself in the library or in the kitchen. He's trying to read and obviously can't focus. Flashback to him explaining what happened to George. He and George argue too. (George sort of blames Lockwood initially and Lucy isn't there to yell at.) We don't get full sound for this argument; the song kind of drowns it out. Not that it's a loud song-- it just feels loud and all-encompassing because that's how Lockwood's emotions are to him. He can't even argue with George because he thinks-- no, he knows-- that George is right. He did drive Lucy away, or at least he couldn't make her stay. He can't be angry; he can't defend what he did/ said... He just misses her and wishes she would come back.

We see him and Lucy at a case together (she turns around and smiles a rare smile, covered in ectoplasm, hair askew, still totally stunning to Lockwood) and then it's him alone. We get a flash of Lucy at the kitchen table putting jam on toast or telling the skull to piss off, and then her seat empty. We get a shot of the gang coming through the door after a rough case, tossing their swords in the umbrella stand, and then the hallway dark and empty, Lucy's rapier missing from the stand.

He sees all of these flashbacks/memories/ things he wishes still were, but it's not real.

The team is broken.

And it's maybe his fault. (It doesn't matter who's fault it is).

And he doesn't know if things can ever be fixed.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk. For reference, the actual lyrics to the song are beneath the cut. There are some parallels to the scene I've described above/ the book, but mostly the song fits because of the vibe. Bonus points if it's raining in the flashback or in real time but that might be a tiny bit melodramatic. (Because nothing about that scene was melodramatic. ;)