#rowan rdv

hi romi !!

(ask game, which i'm still happy to do c:)

for you, i will revive redacted!rowan, and talk a little bit about one of my old fics

wolf out of water was my technically fourth redacted fic; not all of the early ones got published. i wrote it in the study vc in the redacted server, back in the day, and spent a lot of that time instead of writing looking at photos of abandoned theme parks for what ended up being like, one and a half paragraphs of exposition at the beginning. as you do.

but it is really fascinating :') i found the picture i remember using, which is of six flags new orleans (abandoned after katrina in the 2000s)

(from this article - it appears six flags nola might actually be starting to get redeveloped this year? i checked and they had a plan approved :0!)

i still dont Get why lovely would do what they do (not at night at least, eesh) but there is a sort of fascination to looking at empty places that are meant to have so many people in them, you know, and the leftover bits of rides look like these giant metal skeletons. it's very cool

anyway wolf out of water is about darlin' talking to william, and i'm not very caught up or anything but i'm fairly certain this is an interaction we still haven't had (you can correct me if i'm wrong!) and so i still like what i did for them. i like darlin caught between authority issues and trying to be nice to sam's maker, and i like the sort of post-tragedy exhausted vibe that this fic (& mind in the moment) seem to have

the character dynamics of this chapter of oe are so fun for me you have no idea. incoming samdavid(ivy) meta?? is this meta??? idk

@calicostorms & @softredrobin told me to do this and i am Extremely Happy To

1. vampire tends to your injuries

- first video i saw on the channel, to this day the one i’ve seen the most times, downloaded on like four platforms. i can recite nearly all of it from memory without prompting (i have multiple backups on this it is a documented skill of mine). soundtracks my soul. Tender™

2. your demon finally tells you the truth

- first audio that came out after i joined patreon, the reason i wrote my first redacted fic, absolutely fucking Heartwrenching. and…. imo best video on the channel. avior my darling my beloved i would commit crimes for you. it is so upsetting that we haven’t yet gotten to answer him

3. you make me feel more / gav’s confession

- the final patreon straw. hesitation in his voice when he stops the scene, emphasis on ‘just gavin’ since it’s his chosen name, sheer shock and relief after fl says it back.......... i will cry just thinking about it. ‘you make home feel like what happy people mean when they use that word’ what the fuck sir

4. finally bitten by your vampire boyfriend / vincent biting video

- embarrassingly personally important to me. relationship growth moment. so many gentle and caring consent checks, made me feel warm and fuzzy and ughughuhggh gross on the inside. emotional vulnerability? disgusting.

5. hux’s confession