#roshankin

my luminary nendoroid arrived today and i love him!!! that's me!!!!! so little!!!! i'm so happy!!!! but at the same time.... it's just not quite right!!! this mini me looks so heroic. so courageous! he's determined to be the hero! i need a special custom version of this with faceplates of fear, crying, and nervously looking away as they may as well have been the only emotions i ever expressed then! i was... so much of an anxious wreck that i barely scraped by the whole 'chosen hero' thing, and this tiny plastic version of me looks more willing to do a better job than i ever actually did myself dfgndfjgjk ~roshan (noncanon name) the luminary from dragon quest 11 (#⭐🌷✨)

uuuhhh suddenly in a luminary shift tonight and i think Always. about the stark contrast between me as i remember and the me you see in the game. in the game i'm the purest embodiment of emotionless silent protag besides like two scenes, but in reality? i was a Crybaby! Constant state of anxiety! Worried about everything! Nervous around almost every human being! hendrik even called on me for being 'so jumpy and cowardly yet heroic at once' a hero i am Not!! ~roshan, the dqxi luminary (#⭐🌷✨)