#rosezone

cosmos:  what’s one thing you wish you could say to someone you are no longer friends with?

i know you dropped all contact with me immediately because you felt like a burden and i told you i didn’t want to be friends with you anymore (you are very self-sacrificial), but it was a bitter end. i don’t regret it but i still miss you. it was a horrible time for me to do it as well. i hope you’re doing better

galaxies:  what are three things you want to do before you die?

skydive, play a concerto, own a tarantula

waxing:  what is your proudest accomplishment?

i can’t think of a single most proudest accomplishment, but i got a 5 on my ap language exam and that was a good feel. + that one time mr. zainea gave me an 8 on an argumentative essay

waning:  what is your biggest regret?

thinking i had szpd and, for lack of a better word, “romanticizing” mental illness

full moon:  what type of person do you hope to be?

knowledgeable, capable, self-assured, a hard and organized worker

contemplation:  if you could wake up one morning and everything in your life was perfect, what would that look like?

i can’t even imagine that, because anything i imagine would have a downside. but i would have a lot of close friends, a nice piccolo, nintendo switch, wiiu, and a NASA internship. and math would be easier. and i would be happier more often

night light:  who/what makes you feel safe?

clean sheets, being tired (not tired like exhausted but tired like i used all my energy instead of not having any to begin with), the night sky, rain drops, water crashing, teddy bears, etc. you, of course. that kinda stuff

ponder:  what do you want to do with your life?

make a BIG SPLASH! but not, like, popularity-wise. lol. i’m kind of a nihilist, but it’s optimistic nihilism so i think my stuff matters because it’s my stuff

sunset:  who is someone you thought would be in your life forever, but you no longer talk to?

i think anyone can be someone i no longer talk to, so this doesn’t apply to anyone. and the possibility is always that i may talk to them again

midnight:  are you a different person late at night than in the early morning?

no

candle light:  are you an indecisive person?

yes

reflection:  have you ever changed something you liked about yourself to satisfy someone else?

probably, but not consciously

sweet dreams:  are you happy?

no, not usually. but happiness is not a characteristic. it’s an emotion. so i could be. 

nightmare:  what are you most afraid of?

wasting my life, not being emotionally present

constellations:  who is someone you could talk to for hours and never stop?

you. but i don’t like talking thaaat much. i just want your company

reminder:  who is someone you will never forget?

not calling anyone out, but two recent friends

11-11:  what’s something you want, but feel like you will never have?

a completely fulfilling life. that’s what i feel like i wish for every 11-11 (though not directly), but it’s not possible for anyone, so i don’t know why i bother

shooting star:  who is someone you trust to help you make the right decisions?

i usually make all of my own decisions because my parents don’t control my them usually and i’m bad at taking advice even when i ask for it because i want to make all my own choices. so, me

earth:  where do you feel most at home?

my house

soothe:  what’s one thing that always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

nothing will, without fail, make me feel better when i’m upset. i don’t get uber upset that often, though. probably just getting up and doing something as a distraction. getting up is important

slumber:  what’s one thing that helps you fall asleep when it feels impossible?