#rohan.txt

The important skill ever i think is being able to discern whether certain aspects of art are something you should necessarily strive to achieve or if you simply enjoy looking at them tbh . Like forever and ever i will stare at amazing background art and stylized yet realistic street and building paintings but in practice i hate actually doing stuff like that so much and i actually despise painting and coloring a whole lot sometimes, let alone doing it for a background. The line work i may enjoy and i do deeply enjoy editing and adjusting values and contrast in colors but that dichotomy exists where i love background art and hate creating it. Idk. I feel like it is so easy to fall into the loop of believing you need to emulate the art that you appreciate and you forget that outside of being an artist you can just look at something and love it from afar

Anyway common thread all my ocs share is theyve all been abandoned by what they believed in and have no place they truly belong to or feel they are accepted for who they are and they all need a parent. Except Basil.

despite being in completely separate narratives taniin and shams (they/them and they/it respectively) rly are like 2 sides of the same coin . both of them hide from the person they really are but with taniin they run from the expectations placed on them first by their parents and then by the fact theyre the dragonborn bc they dont think they can meet them but instead forever stagnate because theyre afraid of trying to grow, and in shams's case it sees playing into violence and evil as the expectation placed on it and sees being the good person it once was as something forever out of reach and impossible so it forever tries to balance this line between being the evil thing they believe themself to be but while still holding back from doing things they can never come back from (their conscience still present and not wanting to do irreversible damage they cant be forgiven for. something they wont face as a clear sign that underneath theyre still capable of being that good person).

On the topic of ocs actually making humanoid but distinctly non-human ocs is so fun. The concept of being percieved as something that should be a "normal" human but distinctly isn't and lacks what reaches most people's standard of humanity but in a more physical sense. The isolation of being something society doesn't accept and sees as something to be erased whether through being fixed or being thrown out of said society. The question of why you're alive and what meaning your life has if you have nothing to belong to and nothing to affect and add meaning toward. Crunchy.

The only people im willing to call my skrunklies are my ocs nobody else