#rodolf

Thank u so much!!! I post on insta too but nothing important that isn't already here... You can have some more doodles if you like them though ^_^

Well his whole life since he can remember has been devoted to the church, scripture, monastic practice. He was basically prepped to be a religious leader of sorts since infancy, so when it comes to anything like that - piety, spiritual guidance, etc - he's the perfect figure to turn to. He commands a lot of respect and reverence from his abbey. Anselm looks up to him lovingly, Rodolf feels the same impassive fatherly duty towards him as he feels towards all the brothers under his care. Gregor DESPISES him and Rodolf is too detatched to take it personally and just kind of views him as a lost impious soul in need of guidance.

But also because the church is the ONLY thing he's ever known his interpersonal skills are..... Lacking... He can't really understand personal feelings or problems outside of the lens of scriptural philosophies. If something horrifying happened to you then it was because God willed it, if you're unsure or lost then you just aren't devout enough, that kind of thing. He's not remotely cruel or hostile, but can come across really cold and sterile just because his nature has no warmth to it whatsoever. He kind of operates under the values of fear and reverence, because that's how he learned to view 'love' growing up. When Rodolf says he loves god, he means it, but what he is actually feeling is a mixture of fear and reverence. When he acknowledge's other's love of him, he means he is aware that they fear and revere him.

Thank u!!! They're Benedictines ^_^ And Rodolf lore is that he's the abbot of the monastery and basically thinks that he's THE CHOSEN ONE and God's favourite because of the stigmata on his body that supposedly magically appeared when he was a child.

Errrm well the truth (that he doesn't know) is that they were all inflicted on him by his family when he was a little kid because they thought that having some divine family blessing would grant them a lot of money/favor/power etc. So he was basically told he was some special miracle child and paraded around different villages and churches for people to see like a kind of living relic. And he's too traumatised to remember any of it so he does genuinely just believe everything is real and he's god's number one special-est soldier and that humanity's salvation may or may not rest on his shoulders. Very normal guy.