i need to clear my mind before i break
I generally keep things to myself and don’t really publicly post anything happening in my personal life because i like to keep that separate from internet life but events of today kinda sent me over the edge and I had a break down after break down after break down today and i just couldnt take it anymore.
some troubling information came to my family this morning and it was absolutely devastating. my mother has been fighting for years to get disabilaty and today we learn that, even after getting a letter of approval and a meeting with a case worker, she was in fact not eligable for it or the supplement part which is for people who don’t qualify for disability due to a lack of certain amount of credits of work from previous years. i whitnessed my mother, one of the strongest women i know break down in tears because of fear for not knowing whats going to happen to us next month.
im not wanting pity or anything, i just waanted to type this out because if i continue to keep this all in i will break. i’ll shatter. my brother and i do not make enough to afford to cover all of rent and my mom has no source of income either. im scared. i have no idea what we’re going to do, how we’re going to afford rent or how we’re even going to live. i dont kow what to do and im shaking with feaar. i cant ask for help bc of my pride, im ashamed that i would have to ask or even create a gofundme, because there’s so many others who are struggling with more than me.
