the way it will be
i wrote a little something after today's episode and aaron's cute sad little face and because i am dying for aaron and robert to discuss robert take the fall:
Vic leaves eventually. Aaron watches as Robert holds at her hand and takes her to the door and promises to be back in a second. Itâs been more than a second. Itâs been almost fifteen minutes and Aaron feels this gnawing in his stomach. He feels an ache that has nothing to do with the way his body feels battered and bruised by the crash.
No. This is different. Aaron feels this deep down in his bones and it wonât go away because Robert isnât coming back. The thought just sits there on his mind and then thereâs tears in his eyes that wonât stop falling.
Robert would do anything for Vic. Aaronâs known that for years and years. Aaron really found out when Lee was face down and the sirens were going and his life was over like that. Aaronâs never said it, he wouldnât ever have the need to now but he knew as soon as he saw Lee lying there that it was over. Whatever happiness they had was in the past and it wouldnât be the same again.Â
Itâs the same now. Aaronâs alone. Itâs happening again. He canât blame Robert. He canât blame him for any of it. Heâd do the same. If he wasnât such a shit brother and Liv was alive. heâ d do the exact same. He knows it.Â
âHey.â Aaron doesnât hear it at first. He thinks heâs imaging the voice, that heâs gone mad or something. âAaron.â Itâs definitely Robert, heâs worried and heâs here and â
Aaron looks up, rubs a hand over his eyes. âWhat are âŚâ
Robert has a hand on his face, he holds it there against his cheek and his eyes dart across Aaronâs face like heâs trying to work out where it hurts. âShould I get the nurse?â
Aaron leans his face against Robertâs cheek like a soppy idiot. âNo.â He says and his heart is racing. Heâs waiting for Robert to say what heâs going to say. âRobert.â
âWhy are you crying?â Robert says, like it isnât obvious and then he has this horrible look on his face. âAre you â are ââ He gulps hard and goes somewhere Aaron canât seem to follow. âHe was your husband at the end of the day. I get ââ
Aaron feels sick. He forces hismelf to look up and at Robert. âYou think Iâm crying âcause Johnâs dead?â
Robert looks surprised. His shoulders slump a little like heâs relieved heâs wrong. Then he shakes his head and shrugs hard. âI â well why are you crying?â
âBecause I thought youâd ââ Aaron snaps his mouth shut like heâs scared to say it out loud, like doing just that will make it actually happen.
Robert keeps looking at him. Aaron stares at the bruise he caused, the one he thought would save them both this misery.Â
âThought what?â
Aaron shakes his head and turns himself away as much as he can like Robert will see it happen and give up asking. It doesnât happen, of course it doesnât. Instead, Robert changes tact completely and decides to sit on the bed and hold a hand across Aaronâs arm whilst he strokes small circles like heâs trying to talk Aaron off a ledge or something. Itâs working, thatâs the ridiculous thing.Â
âAaron?â
Aaron gulps so hard he hears it. âI thought youâd gone to the police.â
Robert frowns like Aaronâs mad. âVic isnât getting sent down for this.â Heâs suddenly angry and Aaronâs heart breaks a little.
Aaron looks down and then up again. âYeah. I know.â He whispers.
Robert stops frowning, suddenly he gets it. Aaron feels sick. âThatâs not going to happen.â He says quietly.Â















