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Senses of Life

1. Budget/Save Money 2. Pay Off Car 3. Travel Somewhere(even if I have to go solo) 4. Get In Shape 5. Face Fears 6. Be My True Authentic Self 7. Stop Negative Self-Talk, Self-Doubt 8. Lighten Up

I have been working on my first poetry book since this Summer, and I believe I will be able to release it before Christmas! I am hoping that you will purchase my book once all finally touches are complete. I will be selling it for $7 dollars via createspace and amazon. I hope my words are able to comfort and resonate with at least one person. Thanks for the support, I appreciate it.

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What is dating & relationships to us millinnials??

I’ve always wanted to do that, to travel with a lover; even if it’s just traveling together within California! I wanna plan out an evening when we reach our anniversary! I wanna experience those things! Will I ever get to experience such things? In a sense, it makes me feel some type of way. As if I’m not worth going out of the way for, as if I’m not worth planning cute/meaning outings with. Maybe in due time, I suppose, but I’ve become quite the cynic in the past few weeks/months, when it comes to relationships and love. 

In this generation, one thing I find extremely hard is Dating. A few years ago, I gave online dating a shot, it didn’t really lead to anywhere or anything serious. I’m the type of person who likes long-term relationships, I’ve never been one to want to be in a fling or hook-up. I want something meaningful and consistent. A relationship in where we help each other grow, reach our dreams, support one another and help to calm each other’s minds(soul, heart, body) when in stressful times. In this generation it’s very hard to find that. I feel after a break-up, we are very cautious as to who we get involved with next. Especially with this whole side chick/side piece thing going on. How can you even trust that you’re the only person they’re talking to? We may come across someone worthy, but are too scared to take the leap; out of fear of getting hurt once again. Honestly, I feel when it comes to romantic relationships and love, I’ve become quite a cynic and I’ve closed my heart off; don’t know when it will necessarily open up again. I wrote this because I’m sitting at a part, there’s a lot of couples here being all cute! *barf*

I feel this has taken a bit of a toll on my self confidence lately. I look at other people my age and I see them happy with their career, in a steady relationship, living in their own place----and I think how all of that seems so far away and out of reach for me. It makes me feel like a disappointment and it doesn't help that since I still live with my mom, she sometimes reminds me of what I "lack". I keep getting opportunities, but they aren't my true passion. I'm a bull and very stubborn; I'm in a battle with myself. Do I want to keep going after my passion or go back to a career I feel stuck with, just because I studied it in College? I keep thinking of that post here on Tumblr about all those celebs such as bill gates, oprah etc who got turned down yet used those failures as an advantage to create something even better. I have patience, I can only hope that the best is yet to come.