#rkxeve

💌 @rkxeve​

it’s strange for saerom to look back on her year. she’s come so far, from her illness to her stint of sadness and depression, overwhelmed by negative thoughts constantly. to her much more open minded and enthusiastic self coming forward. the bubbly saerom was beginning to re-appear too and just in a matter of time. how sad would it of been for her to of given up on everything, maybe it would of been easier. to admit defeat. it took her some time to find herself back on the right path but she’s sure she can’t stray from it ever again. she’s got her sights set on the end of the tunnel for good now. and she’s not stopping until she gets herself there.

well, that’s what she thought. saerom hasn’t really come to terms with the fact that sometimes, people give up on this dream and they leave you behind. or is it more so that they leave them behind? is saerom leaving her friends behind? or have they forgotten her? with saerom’s source of light and motivation to keep going forward at sphere being gone, the hope of the two of them debuting together is over for good.

 adore you, sings jinwook under his breath. i adore you, i adore you, enough to get dizzy. the sheet of lyrics is crumpled between his fingers, his own parts highlighted in a pink so bright it almost stung his eyes when he first saw it. a few weeks later, the text is faded beneath the splash of color and in the seams of the page’s folds.

he’s in charge of some catchy chorus lines this time around, and as much as he dislikes the air of competition surrounding that sort of thing, it feels good - the parts are comfortable, and they fit him, and the center point dance that comes along with it is bright and dynamic, in a way that has quickly become convex’s own style, if he’s allowed to say so himself. he likes the way the chords shift minor at the end of the chorus, and he likes that the dance team has snuck in so many playful hidden bits of choreography, even if the song won’t see the light of a music show stage. he likes the idea of releasing a music video as an anniversary fan gift. all things considered, jinwook should adore it.

he sets the lyrics down and sets his fingers against the studio keyboard, absently hitting a few chords from the bridge. he should be just as enthusiastic about the amount of downtime that has come to the group between promotion cycles, but lately he’s been aching for more schedules to take his mind off things. after recovering from comeback promotions in may, jinwook had thrown himself into the vlive opportunities that came their way, but that was only once a week. the rest of their practice schedules had been mostly mindless routine, and jinwook would’ve appreciated the familiarity more if his personal life hadn’t been falling apart at the same time. he’d finally gotten the extra independent study and studio time he’d been missing, but mostly, when he’d tried to write, it’d been an unpleasant, pessimistic mess and not like convex’s bright image at all.

          ━━━━━━━━━━━         @rkxeve ◞  ❤

belatedly, jiwon realizes ... most of the girls are far above her caliber of expertise. while it was something she had come already knowing, it was only when she finally was faced with the girls who she’d be practicing with during the month, did it hit her like a train going full speed ahead. and there was no brake to this horror. it would continue to fill her until all the introductions are done and she’s but a small little bunny, wracked with nerves and feelings of self-doubt once more. 

not only would this be her first evaluation, she was doing it with girls she not only didn’t know, they were far more qualified -- jiwon already knew she was going to let them down. and in that instant, she knew she had made a mistake agreeing to join. they were going to be evaluated for their skill, criticized by the harmony of the group, to the very skill each member possessed and jiwon knew that she was not on par with the other’s. it was depressing, but true -- and unfortunately, it was written all over her face as she agonized over it after the first hour of practice.

@rkxeve

When Seulgi had first come to Sphere, she remembered quite well the welcome she received by the trainees, but perhaps the most memorable one had been from Eve.  The other girl had ended up essentially hugging Seulgi until the two of them had ended up on the floor in a sort of slow-motion tackle that the other had done to her.  It was very memorable and one of her most fond moments in Sphere.

@rkxeve

there’s been a chill in the air for quite some time now, and though she’s usually rather seasonal with her wardrobe, there’s a lot left to be accounted for- particularly a lot of old sweaters that rachel either doesn’t want anymore, or doesn’t fit. Her first thought instead is to offer them to eve, who hopefully won’t see it as anything negative. 

@rkxeve

truth be told, after the year she’s had, halloween is more than a little bittersweet. she only attends lotte’s event because eve didn’t want to go alone, and rachel wasn’t going to let her either. they’re on opposite ends of the spectrum of excitement, truthfully, and though she’s trying to get into the spirit, she knows that for most of the evening, she’s been a little bit of a killjoy for eve’s halloween buzz. 

August Center Evaluation - Sejeong’s center w/ Eve - Laboum’s Between Us, doing ZN’s parts

Sejeong had struggled for a little bit trying to pick a song that she would want to do for her own center position evaluation.  She had done rapping in someone else’s, so she knew she wanted to come back to her first love, singing, for her own.  She went through a lot of options until she stumbled across a song that she thought would work just right for her.  It was slow, but had a good rhythm to it, she’d still get to sing a good amount as the center too, so she went ahead and went for it.